In a bar that’s always closing. In a world where people shout. I don’t wanna talk this over. I don’t wanna talk it out. I was quite impressed until I hit the floor. Isn’t that what friends are for? Pain looks great on other people. That’s what they’re for.

We had my old friend Larry Goone on to talk about his latest venture ChiCannaFest.. The Chicago Cannabis Festival on Easter Weekend.
This Will Be The Best Fest In The Midwest.. You Know It

The first ever, smoke-friendly.. professionally run, fully legal cannabis expo & music festival.. all in one.

Downtown Chicago. In The Heart Of The City.. in a jewel of a venue, inside and outside location with:


Smoke, Eat, Buy, Try & Enjoy Marijuana Legally at this FIRST EVER LEGAL MARIJUANA FESTIVAL..

Only ChiCannaFest Allows It

He brought an incredibly hot Asian model with him, my new friend Justine Ponce Jabines. Everyone but me smoked pot. 

I originally met Larry at his event the widely popular Chicago SexCon. He also runs Born A  Babe

Owner and Founder at and works at Owner and Founder at Chicannafest and Owner and Founder at The Chicago Sexcon AND MAYBE THE MOST BANNED PERSONALITY ON SOCIAL MEDIA


I’m lying on my back now, The stars look all too near. Flowers on the razor wire, I know you’re here. We are few and far between, I was thinking about her skin. Love is a many splintered thing. Don’t be afraid now, Just walk on in.

My walk home from work Monday in the dark at 5PM CST

Her eyes were cobalt red
Her voice was cobalt blue
I see no purple light
Crashing out of you
So just walk on in

Her lovers queued up in the hallway
I heard them scratching at the door
I tried to tell her
About Marx and Engels, God and Angels
I don’t really know what for
But she looked good in ribbons
So just walk on in


Outside of Whiskey Thief on Davis

Tracii Guns Twitter profile with a pic Bob Hoeksema took of him 2 wks ago for my review. He also put it on his Instagram.

Thursday afternoon Curse and Rona left and had one more rehearsal till the tour bus would leave Chicago for the first show of the tour in Cleveland. Rona flew home to Austin and her and Curse would re group mid tour for some shows they have with David J the British alternative rock musician, producer, and writer. He was the bassist for the gothic rock band Bauhaus and Love and Rockets.

Love and Rockets are one of my very favorite bands 

I spent the day working on the podcast and other MK ULTRA related work and the next morning got up and did more laundry since the guest rooms bed clothing would have to be clean for Dales visit. He arrived mid afternoon and he gave me some great birthday gifts that included 3 nice coffee table books and a box of about 20-25 hot sauces. We hung out for about an hour and then went to eat at Charcoal Delights known for enjoy thick, delicious 100% pure domestic beef burgers, or plump all beef Vienna hot dogs, or Maxwell Street Polish with all the trimmings! The famous broasted chicken, golden brown on the outside, moist and tender inside. Also charcoal broiled steaks, or barbeque ribs with their famous sauce, or homemade beef and sausage. We both had Gyro Plates.

After we ate we swung by Aldi and I did some grocery shopping and we put it all away and were on our way to 3rd Fridays at the Zhou B Art Center.

 Zhou B Art Center in Bridgeport, Chicago for 3rd Fridays and PAINTING THE FIGURE NOW

Zhou B Art Center opens exhibitions every 3rd Friday of the month with an evening reception from 7pm-10pm. These events are free of charge and provide the community of Bridgeport and the Chicago area a unique opportunity to explore a blend of international and local art. The artists-in-residence at the Art Center open their studios to visitors, making this a unique opportunity for the community to meet working artists and discuss their work in person.

Founded in 2004 by the internationally acclaimed Zhou Brothers, Zhou B Art Center was created as a site of exchange between local artists and the global art community while promoting the contemporary convergence of Eastern and Western visuality in the United States. Located in Chicago’s historic Bridgeport neighborhood, the Zhou B Art Center’s mission is to engage cultural dialogue through contemporary art exhibitions and programming with an international scope.

The Zhou B Art Center provides galleries, studio spaces, and a collaborative environment to a thriving community of talented artists and curators. The purpose of the Zhou B Art Center is to nurture the creativity and growth of its nearly 50 resident artists while providing groundbreaking exhibitions open to the public. On the Third Friday of each month, the center hosts a free exhibition and open studio event where locals can explore the main galleries as well as resident artists’ studios. This event is the perfect opportunity for Chicagoans and tourists alike to support the numerous artists involved with the Zhou B Art Center.


PAINTING THE FIGURE NOW seeks to show quality painting that investigates the many ways we see the human figure now. Contemporary approaches to portraiture, narrative, and any and all visualizations focusing on the human form in life, action, play, work, and repose. We want to exhibit artists who understand the finest traditions of figurative art. We believe the human form is an endlessly interesting subject with inexhaustible potential. We want to see humanity with a relevant, fresh, and contemporary feeling.

My favorite artists in residence is Martin Bernstein. His space seems to be a permanent instillation. 


On the way home from the southside we drove up Ashland to see if Checkers was open yet. It was supposed to be open June 22. As we drove by it looked liek it hadn’t been worked on since I biked by last summer on my way to Alcalas. Wheat we would find just before they were closing was Popeye’s so we went in to try the chicken sandwich everyone is getting stupid over. It was damn good but not worth waiting in line fighting etc.

We both crashed pretty early and were up early Saturday morning to hit the north shore (Skokie and Evanston) where we’d so some shopping, eat and visit the Block Art Museum exhibit I found out about the night before on Latin op Art.

Our first stop was Red Robin and I ordered my Burnin Love Burger with an extra patty. It wasn’t as good as last time to be honest. 

Fried jalapeño coins, house-made salsa, Pepper-Jack, lettuce, tomatoes and chipotle aioli on a jalapeño-cornmeal kaiser roll.

Before the art museum we hit of Valli Produce and grabbed some items for us both to take to our homes. 

Block Art Museum at Northwestern Univeristy Campus Evanston for the exhibit Pop América, 1965–1975

Pop América, 1965–1975 challenges and reframes familiar notions of Pop Art by bringing together artists from North and South America, as well as the Caribbean. Pop América is the first exhibition to unify Latin American and Latinx expressions of Pop and explore how artists working across the hemisphere embraced its bold and colorful imagery, references to mass culture, and representations of everyday objects, signs, and symbols. The exhibition makes a timely and critical contribution to a deeper understanding of this period and the impulses behind Pop Art from the mid-1960s through the mid-1970s.

Pop América features nearly 100 artworks by artists working in Argentina, Brazil, Chile, Colombia, Cuba, Mexico, Peru, Puerto Rico, Venezuela, and the United States, sparking an expansion and reconsideration of Pop as a U.S. and British phenomenon. The exhibition reshapes debates over Pop’s perceived political neutrality and aesthetic innovations. The artists in the exhibition create vital dialogues that cross national borders and include Antonio Dias, Rubens Gerchman, Roy Lichtenstein, Marisol, Cildo Meireles, Marta Minujín, Hugo Rivera-Scott, and Andy Warhol, among others. United by their use of Pop’s visual strategies, these artists have made bold contributions to conceptualism, performance, and new-media art, as well as social protest, justice movements, and debates about freedom.

Pop América opened in October 2018 at the McNay Art Museum in San Antonio, Texas, and will be on view at the Nasher Museum at Duke University until July 2019 before traveling to the Block Museum at Northwestern University.


Sunday we had a podcast and then Monday it was back to business as usual. I came home to a house to myself for the first time in 8 days. It was nice. I watched Ray Donovan.

Then this happened. 




Deep on the scene she is waiting for me, Like a sin scraping skin she is screaming for me. Hope in hope in the sky she is talking to me, She’s keeping time keeping time with the image of me.

Singing onstage with Danny Lee Hill and Pete Berwick at Wrigleyville North a couple of years ago.

After a very busy couple of days off Danny Lee Hill came to visit late in the afternoon Saturday as it was already dark outside when I walked to Walgreen’s for beverages and met him on his way to Byron’s to grab us some gyros. We went back up to Casa Diablo to hang out. Curse Mackey had called the night before to inquire if he and Rona Rougeheart could stay from Sunday till Thursday for PIGFACE Tour rehearsal. I set it up and and would be prepared for a full house as Dale would be arriving the day after on Friday the 15th for an early birthday celebration. That means on Friday morning I have to haul all of the guest room bedding to the laundromat.  

Curse and Rona with Bauhaus/Love and Rockets legend David J

Sept 2016 with Curse, Rona and Verena May

Danny and I were both feeling the effects of the early nightfall and were already very tired. I showed him Dave Chapelle’s “Sticks and Stones” special and followed it with Tarantino’s epic “The Hateful 8″. But not before he ran back over to Walgreens for a candy run. It was 1030 by the time they were both over and he crashed in the living room and I had a solid night of sleep in my room. According to Danny I had zero night terrors.

Woke up and made breakfast and drank coffee as I prepared for that afternoons PodCast with Paul Kelvington a Psychotherapist who I met through Danny. We already had concerns about Ty’s tardiness and she was already a 1/2 hour late so we started without her. She finally arrived about 1/4 way into the show. It was a very good show and everyone left (Ty had Matthew Clark in tow) and I had the rest of the evening to myself and finished season 2 of the Mars series. 

Curse and Rona arrived around 10PM and I went to bed as the news called for a vast drop in temps and heavy snow overnight. I got an early start and my commute was unpleasant but trouble free. The day went fast as I was very busy and the next day the temps didn’t get above 17 and like Monday it went very quickly. That night after Chicago Fire and Chicago PD I stayed up chatting with Curse and Rona and as I had hoped was able to sleep till almost 8A. Thursday we’d get up to 32 Tuesday night I was in bed by 9P and actually slept till 605A which is great for me. 

Lamb of God’s Randall “Randy” Blythe and Curse Mackey

As I write this it’s 135P and they are gathering their belongings for another night of rehearsal. The PIGFACE Tour kicks off tomorrow in Cleveland and Dale arrives here in teh afternoon and we got to ZHO B ART CENTER tomorrow night.

Preparing for my 4th birthday in a row at the Looney Bin

But it’s so hard to be the one, to touch and tease and to do it all for fun. But it’s too much for a young heart to take, cause hearts are the easiest things you could break. And I talk to the filth, and I walk to the door. I’m knee deep in myself. But I want to get more of that stuff.

Fuck Chicago concert promoters. I’m serious. As I’ve mentioned, with the exception of Reggie’s, they’ve ignored hard rock music, especially bands who were big during the 80′s MTV era. I’ve seen LA GUNS just about a dozen times over the last 3 years. I saw Tracii Guns solo at the Looney Bin in Bradley IL, have seen LA GUNS multi times in St Charles IL, Joliet IL, Rockford IL and Valparaiso IN. Not once in the city which I live. From the turnout they obviously have a draw so why is it the Forge in shithole Joliet and The Arcada in St Charles that book these acts? I’m fucking SICK OF IT.

With that said I was more than happy to spend time with my old sidekick Bob (Newbomb Turk) Hoeksema. We’ve been sharing shows together for 20 years now and we have some tales that I dare never share on a public forum. I got downtown early Saturday morning with enough time to throw a burger down my throat at Five Guys. There’s a location just north of me on  way to work that recently closed so I had to jump on it while I had the chance. And I did. With not enough time to finish my massive order of small fries I packed them into my bag and got on the Metra for a long ride to the end of the line at Aurora. 

It was a lot colder in Aurora than it was in Chicago. Bob was about a 5 minute wait and we were on the way to Tubby’s Drive In (his house) where I got to meet his new dog Otis. We hung out for a few hours listening to LA GUNS songs and made our way to a sold out show in St Charles with LA GUNS and Tom Keifer of Cinderella fame. Cassie wasn’t able to attend even though she had expressed interest in going previously so I had her passes put in Eden Lakes name who drove at last minute 72 miles from Gary IN to shoot the show. Bob would shoot LA GUNS and luckily Eden shot Tom since it was much to crowded for BH to get any clear shots of Keifer’s band.

The audience was a lot like my first visit to the Arcada when Turk and I went to interview Angels Frank DiMino. They were fucked up beyond belief. All of them double fisting over priced 10 oz draught beers. One guy actually carried 3 cups past me. This is the ONLY venue I’ve ever been to where people fall over drunk and do not get tossed out. The security are very level headed and patient. In Chicago they get off on tossing you out into the street for the most simple reason. There are several bouncers and security people who are well known for roughing up attendees. My first visit a guy fell backwards down the stairs and they sat him on a chair. On this night while Tom Keifer was experiencing some technical difficulties I walked into the lobby to stretch my legs which were hurting from the tight standing area and two women fell backwards and spilled their drinks on me and another guy. Security helped them up and they bought a couple of more beers.

As far as drink prices at the venue I remain very unimpressed. I didn’t plan on drinking so I only took $30 in cash with me and opted against buying an LA GUNS hoodie. Like I really need another hoodie. I’m not a hood rat. So I ordered my first drink a shot of Jack on the rocks and the bartender asks me if I want to make it a double and I thought why not. $18. WHF? Okay so I nursed that for about an hour and between sets I went for another and this time a shot of Jim Beam on the rocks. He asks if I want another double and I say no. $12 WHAT THE MOTHERFUCK? I can buy a fifth of Jim Beam at the grocery for $12. I’m never buying drinks there ever again.

One thing I feel I must do is give high praise to the promoter Ron Onesti. He is a very very cool, and down to earth guy. before the show started he was in the lobby greeting and talking with patrons and gave a little girl (Nina Crowns) who was dressed in rock n roll gear some time. He later would get into his dress clothes and when introducing the evenings show bring her onstage to introduce LA GUNS. The little girl later ended up on their bus. Lucky kid

The show was rockin. I love seeing LA GUNS w/ Bob. The only downside was and it was a HUGE downside was the place was much too crowded and there is no handicapped seating so it really sucked for BH. I was pissed because people would keep coming nad going from my row to which I had to step into the aisle so they could get more and more and more beer. another WTF How can you even see the show?
During the show Cassie texted me and let me know she had a flat tire and wouldn’t be able to make it to film the show the next day. This really sucked because she had to bail the last time we had Scott Davidson on. It soured my mood a bit. 

Between sets and after the show I had a few minutes to talk with Ace Von Johnson (lead guitarist in Faster Pussycat, rhythm guitarist for L.A. Guns and previous member of metal bands such as Cheap Sex, Madcap, the U.S. Bombs, the Generators, Unwritten Law and Murphy’s Law.) He actually follows me on Instagram. He’s a super nice guy and he ended up having drinks with Eden. I also got to see Lainie Levinson and was surprised that we didn’t see Johnny Monaco. Turk and I got out of there before the crowd and I was so hungry I had him stop at what I would discover would be the shittiest 7-11 I have ever had the displeasure of entering. We got back to his place and had the ceremonial frozen pizza and I slept like a fucking rock. I always sleep well there and was even able to sleep on my back. I think it’s the leather sofa to tell you the truth.

We woke up and had coffee and breakfast and I had a 1020 train back to the city and this what was amazing. The train got into the station 25 min early, I waited only one minute on my bus to the Red Line and waited on my train only 3 minutes. I was home by 1215PM!!! I had planned to take Cassie to lunch and even though she cancelled I still went to Tac Quick because I had psyched myself up for some good health Thai cuisine and I had been craving Tom Yum since the temp dropped weeks earlier. 
We had a late PodCast scheduled since Scott and Leanne both had band rehearsals and were slated to sit down between 4 and 5 and then they had to leave and see the Killing Joke/Tool concert and United Center and Pentagram later at Live Wire. I got nervous when Ty notified me that her car broke down, She flagged down a cop and got some hep and made it to Casa Diablo just in time to meet Scott and Leanne. The show went fast and it lasted just over an hour and the night was young. Ty hung for a little bit and I slept well and had a busy week of work mapped out.

So that was that and all in all a very good weekend. Thanks to Newbomb, To Carol for LA GUNS and Amanda for Tom Keifer and Ron Onasti for putting together a hell of a rock show,

Talking to my brother a few weeks ago I spoke of when I worked at Bob Evans in teh early/mid 80′s and how I loved making sausage steak sandwiches. Sausage Steak has since been taken off their menu. So I made my own at home on Tuesday night. It’s Thursday and my haus still smells like sausage grease. 

The Sun’s coming up and I’m still drinking. And no one left to pay my tab. And I know I’m good for one thing. Even though you said I’m good for none. You remember how we felt tonight. And I know that we will be alright.

It’s snowing on Halloween and I’m not sure if I’ve ever seen this happen.

NBC 5 reports:

Halloween Forecast: What to Expect for Trick-or-Treating in Chicago Area as Record-Breaking Snowfall Possible

Costumed candy-seekers will likely have to brave record-breaking snowfall, windy and unseasonably cold conditions for the holiday

I’m in till 2PM and then off to see Dr. Tong for my flu shot.

I have Sundays show pretty much prepped for Scott Davidson (Rebel Radio) and Leanne Murray (drummer PIGFACE/BEER NUTS) with 2 new songs and videos from Nadjia Marks project that Martin Atkins played drums on.

Saturday is LA GUNS and Tom Kieffer (CINDERELLA) with NeIf all goes well I’ll be eating at Five Guys downtown before my train leaves and am looking forward to this concert more than any other concert of the year. 

Cassie is picking me up at Union Station Sunday and I got a message from Amanda that she might tag along. As I said in my reply “what a nice surprise.”

Eden Lake told me she’ll be at the show and has a present for me. Hell the present of just seeing her is good enough.I haven’t seen her since my birthday last year. 

It’s looking like I’m going to make Thanksgiving this year. Not sure who will be here being that’s the PIGFACE show weAkend. Could be anyone. I already have the turkey.

So hard to believe 4 days ago it was 60 degrees and I was sitting outside on the deck with friends, 

If you heard the last PodCast you know Larry Goone (Born A Babe) called me Saturday to tell me that ChiCannaFest is booked for Easter weAkend 2020 and I’m hoping to have Mystery Actions, Electric Revolution and Ania Tarnowska’s I Ya Toyah on the 3-day bill. He’s letting us PodCast live there all weAkend.
2020 is looking to be an exiting year already as my old friend from Norway MORTIIS is coming back to the states to play. That’s just to kick the new year into gear…

I suspect it’s gonna feel more like this:


So what, it’s your problem to learn to live with. Destroy us, or make us saints. We don’t care, it’s not our fault that we were born too late. A screaming headache on the brow of the state. Killing time is appropriate. To make a mess and fuck all the rest, we say, we say, So what? so what?

It was only just over a week ago I invited the multi talented, fun and beautiful Ania Tarnowska to join us on the podcast. Little did I realize that she’d eagerly accept. I can only assume the word is getting around.

Over the next day or so I’ll wrap up this diary entry and go into detail about SINday and why she told me with a laugh and a smile that I am the devil. But there were a few days that led up till the sabbath and I’ll begin with Thursday.

Thursday morning I dragged about 70 lbs of laundry out and up to the L and took the train about a mile and then down to Wilson and over to the nicest laundromat in the neighborhood. Not only did I have about 2 wks of my own wash but all of the bedding for the guest room as Michael X Christian and his lady Jessica were coming in from Iowa for an extended weekend as his Marilyn Manson tribute act MISERY MACHINE were playing to Halloween shows in the region. Not the city but the outskirts and the latter would be in Hobart IN By the time they arrived around 10PM I was ready to go to bed I gave him keys showed him the back door and flashlights so he could find his way around the back porch in the dark and I crashed. Friday morning I went to work and started on a new project that would keep me very busy. But the time I’d get home they’d be gone and I had the flat to myself till the next morning.

I changed into my sweats and watched “Dolemite Is My Name”: The story of performer Rudy Ray Moore, who assumed the role of an iconic pimp named Dolemite during the 1970s starring Eddie Murphy in his long overdue comeblack. It was every bit as great as I hoped and being a big fan of blaxsploitation was very pleased with the outcome.

 Blaxploitation or blacksploitation is an ethnic subgenre of the exploitation film that emerged in the United States during the early 1970s. The films, while popular, suffered backlash for disproportionate numbers of stereotypical film characters showing bad or questionable motives, including criminals, etc.

Saturday was a washout and luckily I had all of my errands taken care of 2 days before. A perfect day to get productive inside and for me it would mean detailed cleaning. I wanted to make a good first impression on Ania and when Michael and Jessica finally woke from bed and began to get ready for the next gig she even commented on the difference it was making on things I was paying closer attention to. They left around 430 or so and I was cleaning long after. I would feel accomplished. My mistake was taking a nap around 6 and then getting up and having a huge cup of coffee. Despite the meds I’d take I would be up till 327A binge watching Bates Motel I fell asleep s fast that they came in just minutes later and I didn’t hear them. 

I should note that they are excellent guests. They don’t use my kitchen and not only brought their own towels they actually bought toilet paper…again. 

After the death of her husband, Norma Bates buys a motel in the picturesque coastal town of White Pine Bay, giving herself and teenage son Norman a chance to begin anew. Shy Norman is reluctant at first, but with the help of his mother — with whom he shares an intensely close relationship — the boy begins to open up to others and make new friends. Some locals, however, aren’t as friendly and welcoming to the Bates, who discover that because White Pine Bay isn’t as peaceful as it appears, they are forced to do whatever it takes to survive. The drama series, from executive producers Carlton Cuse (“Lost”) and Kerry Ehrin (“Friday Night Lights”) and inspired by the seminal 1960 horror film “Psycho,” explores the formative years of Norman Bates and how his complicated bond with his mother forged a serial killer.

I’m such a huge fan of the Psycho movies that this show is intoxicating to me. However there was something uncomfortably familiar about it that I couldn’t pin down till Sunday. It was totally the story of that jealous Dutch woman I dated Monique and her son Kyle. So fucking strange that it was exactly like their relationship I would not be surprised a bit if she had followed him to wherever he went to college and lives there nearby if not even closer.

 I spent the morning getting myself ready for what I believed could possibly be the best show to date The big query was would they all be on time? Cassie as always, Ty and Matt are hit and miss and Ania my new friend well she was spot on ON TIME.

It had all the makings be a very interesting afternoon.

Earlier in the week as I was reading her EPK to study up on the interview I noticed it was written and recorded at the Bradley Mental Institute.

AZ: Bradley Mental Institute?
AT: Haha yes- my home I wrote, recorded and produced Code Blue album at home and home has a nickname.
AZ: Haha!!! I love it. Mine is Casa Diablo.
AT: Love it haha!

I woke up around 9AM and this was a good sign. I fed the cats, started the shower and my coffee and opened up the kitchen porch door. It was an exact photo negative of the day before. It was bright, blue and warm. The back doors would remain open for the balance of the daylight hours I got myself and the studio area prepared and when Michael and Jessica woke up we all sat out back. Amazing day! And all signs pointed to positive. 

A couple of hours passed and before 1PM Cassie arrived and about 25 minutes later as we were walking out the front Ania (in full stage garb) called and she had parked out front. We met her outside (in front of the neighbors) and hugged and I told her “Welcome to Casa Diablo.” It was then that I became fully aware of her thick Polish accent. It’s enough to melt an ol rawk dawg such as myself. We went upstairs put up her things and I introduced her to the cats as well as to Michael and Jessica. Not long after Ty arrived and was followed by Matthew. They both wanted to make a beer run so I had Michael do it since he was leaving anyway and I had everyone captive, on time no less and we could have the pre show meeting. 

This is when I learned what substitute teacher feel like. Cassie was stage front and we were both giving directive and nobody would pay attention or shut up. I snapped and yelled. THIS WAS IMPORTANT! Not to mention the show would be dedicated to the memory of Samantha Marie Serena who we had lost just a few days prior. 

Michael arrived with Jim Bean and PBR and made a quiet exit out the front of the house. Cassie made a round of drink and we began the show and there were technical difficulties with very loud feedback so I had to abort, we took 15 and Cassie and I reconfigured the recording gear. This was a first. 

By 3PM we were recording what can be no less described as a rock n roll circus (take 2) The show was wild and unscripted and came in just under 90 minutes. We had what could have been our best show yet which is what I had aimed for except that I could not keep anyone but Ania on subject and flow with the mapped out format. That was what the meeting was about. All in all it was good and captured the rock n roll spirit. Loose and free. 

As I began to download the show everyone went out onto the back deck and had beer and smokes. We took a few pix and I gave my new friend a tour of Casa Diablo. During the day we realized we shared some mutual friend oversees. Mortiis in Norway and Peter in Poland who is from the same town as Ania. She has performed with Mortiis a few months before and we;’e both looking forward to seeing him return to the states in January. Such a small world when you’re in this sub genre of underground music.  wouldn’t trade it for anything!

Next door was lively as some new neighbors were moving in so I decided to greet them in only the way I can and that was by tossing a Super Snap Banger/Red Cracker Snap that  Nick Huffman gave me back in summer. BAM! A car in the alley stopped and the new neighbors froze. We all laughed and Ania grabbed me laughing and said in her thick Polish accent “YOU’RE THE DEVIL!” followed by “Casa Diablo”. 

As the darkness wrapped the day everyone left and I walked around picking up 1/2 full/empty beer cans and pouring them out in the sink. UNREAL even adults cannot finish a beer before opening another and we’re pretty much middle age.Overall I was pleased which would also mean I’d have a very good night of sleep. 

I watched another episode of “Bates Motel” put on PBS and was off to sleep. 





“Death makes Angels of us all and gives us wings where we had shoulders smooth as Ravens claws” ― Jim Morrison, An American Prayer

Yesterday while I work I got a message from Nick Huffman. I only then saw that I missed his call. If Nick is going to call me while at work I know it’s important He had news for me that he didn’t want me to read on social media (which I cannot access at work) and I could hear in in voice he was upset. “Sam is dead” and I questioned “Who?” I replied and he said “Samantha”. I was in shock but not as in shock as he being that so many people in the ‘Bins’ inner circle have passed in 2019. We spoke about 2 minutes and I told him to “hang in there” and after calling Cassie went back to work. 

7/20/2019 MKULTRASOUND Live PodCast from the Looney Bin

Headline from the Kankakee Daily Journal 10/25/2019 Woman killed in car-semi crash

A crash between a car and semi-trailer truck on Thursday night resulted in the death of a Gardner woman.

A report by Grundy County Coroner John Callahan said Samantha M. Serena, 35, of Gardner, was pronounced dead at the scene at 7:35 p.m. Thursday.

Serena’s vehicle was westbound on Goodfarm Road when she went through the intersection of Campus Blacktop without stopping and struck the southbound tractor-trailer loaded with beans.

The crash caused the trailer to open, spilling a large amount of beans onto the highway. It took several hours for clean-up and getting the proper equipment to the scene before extrication could take place by the Gardner Fire Department.

The crash remains under investigation by Callahan’s office and the Grundy Sheriff’s department.

We lost a wonderful member of the family last night so we have a very special MKULTRASOUND PodCast coming this Sunday and the YouTube episode will feature a very special performance she did for us last July 20th at the Looney Bin where we did a live podcast with her as a guest.

Ty and Samantha 

She was a big supporter of the show and not only listened but shared links to it regularly. She was in a garbage tribute band  STUPID GIRL and I actually met her through Emily. 

June 10, 2019 Emily sent me this image at 1:03A of her and Samantha

Look who I met … lead singer of a Garbage tribute band. She’s sassy af. You’ll love her

And then a month ago she started selling my son Nicholas’s KILLER BEARDS product at her salon.

My last communication with her was last weekend when I told her Id be back at the Looney Bin to celebrate my birthday in December. We made plans to meet up and possibly finally have her give my hair the SKOLNIK treatment. 

It goes without saying that she’ll be missed by all of us in the MKULTRASOUND family. 

Life is like Tragedy life reminds me bout, a symphony on the radio. First a little bit too fast, and then a little bit much too slow. ……..For me!

The past 2 weeks I’ve felt very uninspired, and today I’m actually pushing myself to create. I’m sure to be out of this funk by the time I go to work in the morning. Last weekend I was sick and sleepless and was sick with no voice till Wednesday morning. I hadn’t been posting on social media and for some people that is a red flag. Same with the phone I don’t live on social media or my mobile. Sometimes I just want or need to have some alone time. Ty was late again last weekend so that’s twice we didnt do shows in the last 30 days. By 130PM I’ve been up for 9 1/2 hours ad am mentally shot.

Michael and Jessica arrive tonight to stay for 2 nights as he has a couple of shows here in the city. Saturday I’m going to spend the entire day working on the podcast as far as pre production. So if I don’t answer my phone or make my presence on social media know please only know I’m working. Next Friday Nov 1 I’m meeting Bob Salisbury from Boston and his girlfriend Angela for wings at The Birds Nest and the night after I have LA GUNS with Newbomb then come home and do another show with Bob and Lisa Lightning. It looks to be very political Should be fun.

The following Friday Dale is in town for the weAkend to celebrate my birthday with me a month early. I’ve nixed my plans to go to New Glarus for my birthday and instead celebrate at the Looney Bin for the 4th year. 

So I am alive and well just busy for the time being. 

Last Thursday I gutted and repainted my home office, my writers den. It turned out it was the last warm day of the year. So glad I got it done. Took from dusk to dawn literally. 

Today I made Linguini Shrimp Scampi

The morning of the Chicago Marathon I had a quick Liquid Brunch while waiting on Cassie

Love me some Ramen (long time)

Adam Becvare sent this from the marathon

We’re on the same page

The format the day of the marathon w guest Vicente Romero

The ladies of the MKULTRASOUND PodCast

Dannie and Ty last Friday 


Not enough time for all that I want for you. Not enough time for every kiss. And every touch and all the nights I wanna be inside you. We will make time stop for the two of us. Make time stop and listen for our sighs.

Today marks 5 months since we launched the very first show with guest Nick Huffman and it’s been a roller coaster ride ever since with no signs of slowing down. We actually did 4 shows in less than 1 week a week ago. We now have 28 total shows to our credit.

I’ve spent all fucking day working on a press release for a worldwide media blitz. Now it’s done and I have sent to the UK and now for local and stateside media.