The boy that you loved is the monster you fear Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark, You’ve poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear Pray your life was just a dream The cut that never heals

Nice to know rock n roll still has a place for this ol dawg. 

From Beyond is a Drama/Horror series inspired by the classics like Twilight Zone and Tales from the Crypt where you get tales of Suspense, Fantasy, Science Fiction, and Horror. Swedish with English subtitles.

Earlier this morning I got a message from my website host server that someone is trying to hack into my MK ULTRA site Diary of a Damned Man. WTF is wrong with people?

” there have been more than 20 unsuccessful login attempts for the last 15 minutes.”

Kryztof onstage with his band BILE at House of Blues Chicago Oct 2003

Perhaps I should start at the beginning.

Monday evening I was winding down, preparing to watch another movie and at 611P Kryztof called, in a nutshell he was 4 hrs away into a road trip and needed an overnight layover.  Easily one of my favorite high profile rockers I enthusiastically welcomed him and his friend Uncle Pat Gordon a well-known Audio Engineer best known for his work with Busta Rhymes and 17 yr touring sound technician for Thrill Kill Kult. And  surprisingly we had never met.

The duo arrived at 1130P and brought up their bags and Kryz went to Walgreens and returned with a fifth of Jameson (my first whiskey of 2018), a pint of vodka and a 30 pack of PBR. We all traded tales and I felt in my element. It’s always nice t be around kindred spirits. I recalled a road trip I took with Adam Becvare to Quaker Steak & Lube for wings last year and that may have been the last time I was really around someone that conveyed interesting rock n roll related anecdotes. One of Pats first questions to me was if I was related (to Robin Zander). It wasn’t long before we shook hands and told each other how nice it was to meet.

The next thing I knew it was 7AM. Pint and cocktail glasses had accumulated all over my massive apartment and I took a 90 minute nap before getting up at 830. Kryztof was still awake in the guest room on his laptop. He went to Tac Quick for lunch and then went to sleep from noon till 530P. Pat ordered a large deep dish pizza from Lou Malnati’s and the dynamic duo were back out on the road around 6P en route to Mt Rushmore. From there they’re onto Denver where Kryz will fly to Austin and Uncle Pat back home to Long Island.

It wasn’t even a 2 hour visit and I felt like I had been hit by a ton of bricks. I was exhausted and went onto sleep 14 hours. Today I spent a couple of hours cleaning up. For 3 people we sure made one helluva mess. But it was worth it and a much needed break from my self-imposed boredom. 

It’s literally impossible to discuss the Rock n Roll or entertainment industry/business with your everyday average Joe. They only know what the tabloid press or popular culture misinformation offer. They think it’s all sex and drugs etc. While that was once upon a time part of the job description and thanks to social media shaming and media entities such as TMZ and People magazine is no longer the case, attempting to discuss the ins and outs of the biz falls on deaf ears.

In my not to past every day of my life for over 10 yrs sans some but not all weekends were spent talking with publicists, advertisers, distributors and talent. It was part of my typical day. The people in my circle were all mostly involved as well. There were industry nights such as Sundays at Fuel next to Metro on Clark Street where radio peeps, management, talent and the like all gathered religiously. Then I’d go do my radio show where post production for syndication would take me and my producers into the wee hours of Monday morning. Sometimes I’d get back into the city in time to make a 4 o’clock tavern for wings and a daycap.

Sadly those days are long gone so when I do have time to spend with kindred spirits in the know I’m comfortable and in my element. And that’s one reason why I’ve never really been into joining co-workers at the office for drink. I had absolutely nothing in common with them to talk about. Nothing and I’m certainly not into the trends that they deem “popular.

“……We’d usually cool down afterwards with cocktails at a sports bar. It didn’t matter how big we were back home or how many records we’d sold or shows we played; in Chicago, we were nobody’s. We were just a couple of regular Joe’s to our bar patrons, and there is not a bigger haven for regular Joe’s in America than the sports bars of North Clark Street.” – Slash of Guns N Roses from his autobiography “SLASH”.

 

Two hefty racks of ribs thawing for Friday night w/ Greg Duncan

I’ve updated the TOEverload page for the first time in 2 yrs.

www.facebook.com/TOEverload-157825337639869

 25 questions for Grown Ups!!

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
My ComEd Electric bill. It fluxuates from one month to the next.

2. When was the last time you had a romantic dinner?
The last time I cooked for that Vietnamese woman

3. What do you really want to be doing?
Eating Asian

4. How many colleges did attend?
2 colleges and 2 yrs radio broadcasting classes

5. Why did you choose the shirt you have on right now?
My Presonus Audio long sleeved T is one of my faves. Don’t know why. Possibly because Mark gave it to me.

6. What are your thoughts on gas prices now?
I’m oblivious to it currently. Its not as bad as it was 9 yrs ago.

7. First thought when the alarm goes off in the morning?
The woods are lovely, dark, and deep. And I have promises to keep. Miles to go before I sleep. Did you hear me, Butterfly? Miles to go, before you sleep.
8. Last thought you have before you go to bed?
When you gonna learn that microwave food’ll kill you faster than a bullet? I mean, them damn burritos ain’t good for nothing but a hippie, when he’s high on weed.

9. Do you miss being a child?
Never. I miss having that imagination though.

10. What errand/chore do you despise the most?
DOING THE DISHES

11. Up early or sleep in?
Up early, too early.

12. Found love yet?
I thought I did.

13. Favorite lunch meat?
Chicken Wings and yes I know it isn’t

14. What do you get every time you go to Walmart?
Hot Sauce

15. Beach or lake?
In Chicago the beach is the lake
16. Is marriage overrated?
For me it is. I’m happy for those that actually make it work. I don’t know anyone of my age group that has made their first marriage a success.

17. Ever crashed your vehicle?
A long time ago I was screwing around and hit a house. Other accidents were the other drivers faults.

18. Strangest place you’ve brushed your teeth?
The water in Oak Creek Canyon in Sedona

19. Somewhere you’ve never been but want to go?
A beach house in Old San Juan

20. At this point in your life would you want to start a new career?
I did that back in 2005. In one year I went from Rock n Roll Veteran to Executive search Research Guru

21. How old are you?
53

22. Do you have a go-to person?
Newbomb Turk and Dale

23. Are you where you want to be in life?
I was.

24. Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?
Sid and Marty Krofft shows like:
Land of the Lost 
H.R. Pufnstuf 
Sigmund and the Sea Monsters 
Wonderbug 
The Bugaloos 

And Hanna-Barbera Wacky Races for the villains, Dick Dastardly and his anthropomorphic dog Muttley.

25. What do you think has changed about you since you were a teenager?
My faith in the human race.

My dream home

 

 

In all the years you spend between your birth and death, You find there’s lots of times you should have saved your breath, It comes as quite a shock when that trip leads to fall

Still going through thousands of photos. This will take weeks for sure. Adding a few here and a few there and took some time to breathe as I accidently came upon a file from 2016.

Turn the page….

……and the beat goes on. Early this evening I found images from the old AZ ULTRA Productions myspace page

 

as well as 469 mk ultraviXXXen photos at 

myspace.com/ultravixxxens/photos

Jessica Oct 2016

This afternoon I heard from my friend Jessica who just got back from a couple of months in India and then at 611P Kryztof calls and lets me know he’s 4 hours away and coming by tonight. It’s gonna be a long one for sure and much needed. Looks like I’m sorta getting back into life. 

BILE Kryztof doll with guitar

It’s got me up and down, I been lost and found, Down in a deep dark hole. Looks like my luck has changed, I been rearranged And I’m coming out on a roll.

“There’s two types of people in this country that doesn’t get along: our type and THAT type. They must believe they are the best. And non-comformity threatens them because they don’t want to confront their reality of being incapable of thinking outside their box.”- my brother Blue

 “You can read minds, but you can’t read my heart!”

Found an early Asa Akira poster in my secret library that I was unaware of owning. I need to dig in there a little more.

So it’s been another boring Sunday. I woke up way to early thanks to my kitten Water cat aka Anny. I actually took a nap from 1030-12noon and spent the afternoon watching the new Philip K. Dick anthology series Electric Dreams and then at 436P out of nowhere I got an email from a Jennifer Dark and saw that my old Myspace profile pictures have been restored. These were lost when Myspace went away from social media around 2012. I was thrilled and will be posting a lot of these retro pix over the next day or so. Some of these people I’ve completely put out of my mind, some are no longer with us and there are many pictures from my travels from New Orleans to Arizona to Mexico, Alaska and Wisconsin etc. 

These images are a very hard lesson that I need to get out of this funk and start living and having fun again. 

So many more to come. 

I completely forgot about her

From what I recall the only music we had in common was Sinatra

At Twisted Spoke photoshop shenanigans courtesy of my brother

With Jennifur and the late Mike Scaccia

With Paige and the late George Romero

The late Peter Steele

With Angela Bettis and Paige

Aron and Gwen Bartolini of Grigori 3 at Transit

Shannon Brady

Dinner House of Blues Foundation Room New Orleans

With Herbie Hancock’s family at 2006 Grammy Awards Party

Weirdest bar I’d ever been to, with Mike Ganshert somewhere in WI

The late great Lemmy the last time I saw Motorhead at House of Blues where we spent many nights together. I’d see them again at the Congress and again at The Aragon both times with Thunderbush.

photo by Michellio

The big jump from the Oak Creek canyon wall in Sedona AZ- my girlfriend at the time was crying. It was only 50 ft but seemed much higher. Here is a pic of another person doing it from another angle 

Jennifur

Transit

Linda Hardy and Ron Marks (Celtic Frost/Subsonic)

This was from a night that two girls just showed up at my place and we ended up with a bottle of Jack and a lot of pix I don’t recall nor do I recall their names as I never saw them again. 

Knock Knock

JBTV break

The legend, Joanna Angel

Campsite Oct 2001

Swamp Boat Tour outside of NOLA

Mark when he was International VP of Sales for Presonus Audio

James the Australian VP of Sales for Presonus Audio

First pics I’ve posted of her since 2008 when I pulled every pic of her offline. A true wolf in sheep clothing. The nearly 2 yrs we were together we did a lot of travelling which I almost forgot about till I saw all of the photos. 

At the end of a long day with Crispin Glover

Jason Meudt

My old neighbor from 4119 Jenny Gribble

Canoeing with Hungarian Alex and the late Jeff Windisch

My former favorite waitress Meghan

Mike Ganshert

The night it all began with Morgan Thunderbush Russell

Bounty from NOLA trip 2007

Transit

There are literally THOUSANDS of images I thought I lost when they pulled Myspace profiles off w/out notice. I’ve just spent 3 hours saving some goodies. I so miss my happy life. I’ve been miserable for just  about all of 2017. Time to get back into the groove.

Aga Dondzik  hairdresser to the stars

Michellio from Arizona

2008 with Holly at the late Jeff Windish’s wedding reception

All of these Jeff related pix are killing me.

Gracie Glam

Jennifer Johnson

The Xmas card design I rejected

Alicia

Blue

Alaska

Camping at Mammoth Caves KY

With 2 Susans Xmas 2008

The only canine ever in this haus

Ethiopian Cusine

July 4 2007 BBQ

My dear sweet friend Jill

Film maker and SFX Technician Karen Kenzie

My cousin Kimmy with Ministry’s Al Jourgensen

Kimmy with Angie Jourgensen

Geno from FILTER and my cousin Kimmy

After an ultraviXXXens photo shoot with Julez

Newbomb Turks Piewagon

Hanging out with Prong and Sabrina Satana of Electric Hellfire Club

Zoran and Alicia

Monte Pittman (Madonna) Tommy Victor (Prong/Danzig/Ministry) with Karen TapiaBrett Ackerman and Holly Elzinga

Xtina

Not even 3 days at EXXXOTICA was able to lift my mood as my legal woes hovered in my thoughts and learning that Maggie committed suicide, thus I spent the majority of my time alone in my room or at the hotel restaurant. 

I can literally count the happy times I had in 2017 on one hand and a thumb.

My time with Bob Newbomb Turk Hoeksema (frank DiMino and LA GUNS)

July 1 Naperville BBQ Fest w/ Dale

Labor Day Weekend with Dale

Valerie Kenwells visit to see Cheap Trick 

Memorial Day weekend camping with Greg and

My day at the beach with Ashley

Tommy Victor (Prong/Danzig/Ministry) Cousin Kimmy and Burton C Bell (Fear Factory)

One constant I’ve had for 10 years and the one thing that makes me happy. My home. 

GlamorCon 2004 when I first met Adrian and Joel my Lakota Sioux friend and that’s me with former XXX star Corina Taylor

Outside of Wrigleyville North w/ Hill aka Elvis 2009

Started Philip K. Dick’s Electric Dreams Friday and finished all 10 episodes by this (Monday) morning. All in all I enjoyed it even though some of the episodes translated to me like bad acid trips. It consists of ten standalone episodes based on Dick’s work, written by British and American writers. Five of the 10 episodes of the show, a co-production with U.K. broadcaster Channel 4, were shot in England, the other five in Chicago. The Chicago shoots were a surprise with the first episode “Real Life” starring Anna Paquin and Terrence Howard had several scenes shot at Lou Mitchell’s which is next door to my old office in the west loop. The second episode “Autofac” stars the aways wonderful Juno Temple had a very Twilight Zoneish twist. In fact that’s what I love about most of them as they did share that TZ quality.

One review read:
At a time when audiences clearly have an appetite for engaging with bigger questions, presented in a mind-bending, beautifully filmed format, Electric Dreams will more than satisfy.

Monday morning sonic therapy

Clayra Beau

Angela Armani

Supplies for Katrina Kravens Jan 2009 visit

 A few of Katrina’s mk ultraviXXXen shots

Mike Blackley 2009

Thunderbush at Richmas 2009

In Baton Rouge w/ Mark Feb 2009

Worry less about who you might offend and pay more attention to who you might inspire.

“My reputation as a ladies’ man was a joke that caused me to laugh bitterly through the ten thousand nights I spent alone.”
― Leonard Cohen

“We span time together as a couple, cos we’re a loving couple, spanning time. These photos are us, in love, spanning time.”

- Buffalo 66

Asa’s Real Doll looks exactly like her

Horrible movie and proof that it’s possible for Keanu Reeves to be an even worse actor that he has in the past. Terrible acting beyond words.

536P 50 degrees. All of the snow has melted since I was out at noon today. Tomorrow rain all day and then back to the cold.  Tomorrow I’ll try to sleep in. I feel like I’m almost there to where I want to be as far as work. So close. I’m looking forward to the next phase. Seems more and more like BH was correct. Blessing in disguise. 

Well, this chapter closed. Fuck!

But that’s the way I like it baby, I don’t wanna live forever
- Motorhead

Fast Eddie Clarke joined Motorhead soon after it was founded in 1975 by former Hawkwind bassist Ian “Lemmy” Kilmister. He was the final survivor of the band’s classic lineup: Lemmy, Clarke and drummer Phil “Philthy Animal” Taylor.

Kilmister and Taylor both died in 2015.

550P Ashley calls as I’m comfy in my sweats preparing to watch another film. She invites me over to play Monopoly and I offer no hesitation. I haven’t had a drink in 2018 and my only company was Tom for brunch on Monday. My first assignment from Boston isn’t till Friday so I’ve got nothing to lose. I pack light and carefully. I take along my laptop, toothpaste, sleep and heart meds as well as sleeping shorts. As I board the Red Line I realize I didn’t visit her at her place in the entire year of 2017. In fact the last night I stayed there was Halloween 2016 and then went to my orthopedic surgeon the next morning very weary and hungover. 

Ashley spends almost ever night with her new boyfriend Paul who I have yet to meet. I’ve met her ex Brad who I didn’t care for much as well as her ex husband who I got along with fine. Though Ash has been to visit me a good bit and was one of my few and better friends through my ordeal of 2017 I hadn’t been to her high rise on Lake Shore Drive in a coons age. 

I grab a bag of ice at Walgreens close to her place walk and into the lobby where  the door man signs me in. I take the elevator up up up and I walk up to an open door and see Batman Monopoly board laid out on her living room table. BINGO. Ashley has over 200 Monopoly boards and I knew she chose this one for me. 

We watched the hilarious Asa Akira videos I posted the other day and then I cranked up some LA GUNS and we rolled the dice. 

I hadn’t played Monopoly since 1999 in my first Chicago apt in Wicker Park and in the middle of the game the house next door exploded thus melting all of the blinds on the north side of my apt. and proceeded to burn down the apt building next to it. In the matter of about 90 minutes some 20 families would be homeless. 

Ashley kicked my ass by the way. 

113A Falling asleep next to a window looking out at a sea of skyscrapers. I’m finally free yeah I can fly. City lights a shining makes me so high. Hey Windy City you look brand new. I can see you from a new point of view. Yeah.

 

It was 56 degrees when I left Ashley’s at 1030A. At 535P it’s currently 53 degrees. 

A Winter Weather Advisory calling for a period of sleet and freezing rain spreading from west to east across the Chicago area is forecast to occur this Thursday afternoon/evening.

The advisory runs from 6 p.m. until midnight, affecting the area along and west of Interstate-39 by mid-afternoon and then east into Chicago and northwest Indiana by late afternoon/early evening.

It’s going to feel like January again. I’m thrilled that I got to get out of the house while it was agreeable outside. Perfect timing for my maiden assignment. 

It’s a little hard not to feel saddened today. Thanks for the memories guys. It was a true honor the countless times we shared a room. 

I’ve got your picture, I’ve got your picture, I’d like a million of them all round my cell, I asked the doctor to take your picture, So I can look at you from inside as well

I logged on this morning and the first thing I see on Instagram is a singular image from “ASA AKIRA Participates in No Pants Subway Day in New York 01/07/2018.”

Kill me now.

And it wasn’t this one I refer to.

See the pix at the link below: 

www.hawtcelebs.com/asa-akira-participates-in-no-pants-subway-day-in-new-york-01-07-2018/#ixzz53ecm0kgf

I’ve only met her one time about 5 -6 yrs ago. We talked for a few minutes, and she was really cool and very nice. It’s a shame that there was nobody around to take a pic. After seeing the interview below and how funny she is I MUST interview her. Or at least grab drinks! These 7 min bits are hysterical. I wish I could keep a straight face like this guy. The links are below. 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWe3Zbp0EX8
and
www.youtube.com/watch?v=kN4WPreSorw

Monday morning I had a long overdue visit with my good friend Tom. He’s looking at at cottage in Wisconsin up off of Lake Geneva for a move and I did some research on the last selling price for him and then we had lunch at El Palmar. 

With the image of Asa nearly bare bottomed in the subway embedded in the forefront of my mind I packed up my bed clothes and walked over to do laundry to what I would enjoy as a hour of doing laundry in a near empty laundromat. 

Echoing back to  unforgettable Asian buns, leave it to Dale for find for me one of my faves, the Gringo Bandito green chile pepper sauce which I was first gifted back in July 2016. Gringo Bandito was started over ten years ago by Dexter Holland, singer for the multi-platinum punk rock band The Offspring, more as a hobby than a business. After several years and almost a million bottles later, Gringo Bandito hot sauce has garnered a worldwide audience and a loyal following. “We’re not the most well-known hot sauce out there,” says Holland, “but once people try it, they’re hooked.”

Later in the evening I watched HBO’s version of the Phil Spector court case. 

It focuses primarily on the relationship between Phil Spector and Linda Kenney Baden, his defense attorney during the first of his two murder trials for the 2003 death of Lana Clarkson in his California mansion.

The film opens with the following disclaimer from HBO; “This is a work of fiction. It’s not ‘based on a true story.’ … It is a drama inspired by actual persons on a trial, but it is neither an attempt to depict the actual persons, nor to comment upon the trial or its outcome.” It may as well have read , “Don’t anybody sue us. I’m just making stuff up, using names and a few bits of court testimony that are in the public record.” Except if you look closely at the credits for this HBO “work of fiction,” you’ll find that Baden — the attorney played by Helen Mirren — serves as a consultant.

 

This movie was a rough 2 hours. Great movie but deep, dark and depressing. 

Scarlet Innocence (Hangul: 마담 뺑덕; RRMadam Bbaengdeok) is a 2014 South Korean thriller co-written and directed by Yim Pil-sung, starring Jung Woo-sung and Esom. It is a modern-day retelling of the classic Korean folktale Simcheongga

My weekend was in a nutshell, uneventful. It was still very cold. I did a lot of cooking. Ventured out once to do laundry and another to buy 22 lbs of ice. Other than that I watched a lot of movies, mostly subtitled. Learned a bit about Korean film making and their more than occasional use of Japanese actresses in a lot of the roles. I became very intrigued by the Handmaiden. 

Sunday I was consumed most of the day with the Godfather II and III which takes up an entire afternoon. 

Another film I watched was XXY a 2007 Argentine-Spanish-French drama film written and directed by Lucía Puenzo. It tells the story of an intersexual fifteen-year-old. She lives with her parents, who have to cope with the challenges of her medical condition.

나는 한국어로 꿈을 꾸지 않을지 궁금하다.

Tuesday

This morning as I await assignments I’ve decided to give the fans least favorite Leonard Cohen release “Death of a Ladies Man” another walk in the park. There are some great lyrics herein which are unfortunately overshadowed by Phil Spector’s production.

Do I have to tell you that I need you? Do I have to show you that I care? Do I have to lie and steal to have you? Do I have to sell myself somewhere? Then we can dance all night together, You’ll be my queen I’ll be your slave, And we can stay awake forever, Until we’re dancing on my grave!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHgWNKZ2H-8

“ravishing, enrapturing, and momentously engaging movie with dark delights, startling depths, palpable romance, simmering tension, and high-wire twists and turns”

 ”voluptuously beautiful, frankly sexual, occasionally perverse and horrifically violent”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J8vU7JFrIiE

“What is the point of confessing if I don’t repent.”

 - Michael Corleone

If I learned one thing this weekend it’s that the Koreans have been making some nice sexy and risque films and I didn’t know till now. I have dozens on Amazon Prime. This one star Honoka Ishibashi who is breathtaking. 

Chilled to the bone and five miles to home, I’m messing in the dark and feeling all alone, I got ice in my fire got the heat in my wire, Inject a little heat I’m burning up the tires

It’s so cold in the C

 

Happy New Year to me. Another big box of goodies came from Cathy in Coraopolis, PA. Thank you. It included a boxed set of Star Trek Blu Ray movies which includes STARK TREK – THE MOTION PICTURE, STAR TREK II – THE WRATH OF KHAN, STAR TREK III – THE SEARCH FOR SPOCK, STAR TREK – THE VOYAGE HOME, STAR TREK V – THE VOYAGE HOME, STAR TREK VI – THE UNDISCOVERED COUNTRY as well as THE CAPTAINS SUMMIT: which boasts five of the final frontier’s greatest names being brought together for a 70 minute rare and unprecedented round table event.

Also a great a movie I watched last night and loved District 9 maybe the best Sci Fi movie I’ve seen in ages.

INSOMNIACS HELL

Another near sleepless night. Couldn’t fall asleep till 5AM and woke at 7AM. Took 150 mg of Trazadone, 150 mg of and OTC Sleep Aid (Diphenhydramine) and 30 mg of Melatonin to no avail. My mind simply will not shut off and I’ve suffered from this most of my life beginning in the late 80′s. I built up a dangerous tolerance to Ambien and suspect the same this is happening now. I’d like to go back to Ambien or at least Xanax but they don’t like prescribing them like they used to.
 
It doesn’t help that the heat in my building is over the top being there is a 1 yr old baby on the second floor. I actually had to open my bedroom window during the last past week of subzero temps and my throat, eyes, nose and mouth are dried out when I wake up. This is hell. AC/DC were wrong, Hell ‘IS’ a Bad Place to Be.
view from Montrose Beach

Just another night
And I’m all alone
I wonder where you are
Who you’re holding
And I’m wasting time
By the telephone
It gets harder when there’s no way of knowing
I always thought we’d be together someday
There was nothing that could keep me away
Could of worked it out somehow
But it’s over now

- LA GUNS

This holiday season was by far the roughest, but some really good friends helped me through it. Thanksgiving was terrible and I got sick and got a haircut that I’m regretting. I was alone and depressed and that’s not typical of me. Well it was in 2017 the hardest year of my life and by December QLK and I parted ways after 6 plus years in their employ. It was a very amicable agreement. 

 

Ashley help make my birthday a hoot, the Romantics concert had me so pumped that when I got home at 11P I could not sleep till 330A. Then Dale came, we ate out and went down to Kankakee which as always is a riot. Then I could barely unpack and I was on my way to Indianapolis where I spent time with old friends. Part of it was jovial and other parts I found was stressful for me. I drank too much as a way to mask my depression over the layoff and wasn’t the entertaining guy I can be. The ride home on Megabus was nice. It was Christmas day and it was half full so everyone was spread out. It was so fucking cold when I got to Chicago and I couldn’t find my gloves in my luggage and had to hail a taxi home. The traffic was also light. As I unpacked I found a beautiful Christmas card under my door from my landlords. By far the prettiest I’ve ever seen and I told her that when I paid my Jan rent on 12/26. I made dinner with an attractive friend/former co-worker from QLK and then Sunday spent with Brandon and Greg and we grilled some steaks and Greg made the best bake potatoes I’ve ever had. I confess, I am the master of mashed potatoes. Greg is the master of baked. 

I was feeling down and Bob was sick so we called off our New Years Eve plans and I spent it with my cats and TV. 

Today I submitted my proposal to the company in Boston that I think if accepted can be mutually beneficial. 

I’m glad 2017 is behind me.