So you can stick your little pins in that voodoo doll. I’m very sorry, baby, doesn’t look like me at all. I’m standing by the window where the light is strong. Ah, they don’t let a woman kill you, not in the Tower of Song.

After my interview I was walking to the train and I saw this and my heart skipped a beat.

Tac Quick for a quick snack on my way home. Spring rolls and grilled squid. 

Essential Hypertension; Insomnia; Macrocytic Anemia; Thrombocytopenic Disorder; Venereal Disease Screening Robin C Tong, DO

Venereal disease screening
• CT RNA, qual, PCR, unspecified specimen
• NG RNA, qual, PCR, unspecified specimen
• HIV (1+2) antibodies, EIA, serum, reflex HIV-1 western blot (WB)
• RPR (rapid plasma reagin), serum

“I’m not as promiscuous today as I was yesterday” – Alex quote in 1992

Honestly I can say that now meaning more than 20 years ago. Those days truly ended when I started MK in the mid 90′s. Not to say that I haven’t purposely created the impression to the contrary. Yesterday rather than getting my regular check up, blood test and HIV screening I oped for the full monty and why not. It saved me a trip to Howard Brown and sitting in the waiting room. Dr. Tong helped me create an online profile for access to all of my heath records there.

In my whole life I’ve never had any type of VD. Not even crabs and that’s quite a miracle looking back on my pre rock n roll 1980′s early 90′s lifestyle. It would truly suck if I had now considering my lack of intimacy as of the last few years. 

After that I took the Red Line downtown to River Walk (Chad City) for a very in depth interview for “something” I’ve been slowly pursuing. I will talk about that on the PodCast Sunday as well as a bit of introduction to a Mrs. Springer teaser which I’ll get more into when Angela Denk comes on and even more when I do a special with my brother Erik, yes I have another brother and we’re reuniting in a few weeks. 

I’ve encountered some truly fucked up women in my life but its been a very long time since I’ve ever come into contact with the likes of the married Mrs. Springer. 

1991 Family reunion and a tattooless AZ

Thank you Dave Ganz! I truly love this Amazon series. 

Summers at Casa Diablo

Jason R. Panick August 01, 1967 – October 30, 2018

Today is Jay Panick‘s birthday and though he’s no longer with us he is forever in my thoughts. This is from my birthday 2014 in New Glarus WI where Jay and I had a few adventures over the years.

Jason R. “Jay” Panick, 51 of Elburn. Loving father of Jake & Nicki; son of Adrienne and the late Jerry Panick; fond brother of Mark (Nan), Adam (Tiffany) and the late Lisa Panick; uncle of many. 


She’s the mistress of unseen forces. A clever girl.. she’s a cunning sorceress. She will poison your body your mind and your soul. She has a million ways to make you lose control. Her mind is full of traps and schemes. She’s an evil genius.. the girl of your dreams.

After a long wait, Christmas 2015 to be precise since Quentin Tarantino’s last offering The Hateful 8 which I also saw in 70MM at the Music Box Theater the time had come to see his 9th film ‘Once Upon a Time in Hollywood’. Chicagos 90 year old Music Box Theater which just happens to be in my neighborhood is only 1 of 5 theaters in North America (The USA and Canada) that has the capability to host 70MM films.

 After work I biked over to Southport Ave where tonight show was sold out to buy a ticket for the next mornings 11AM showing. The attendant told me there was one seat left that I could take but I told him I wanted to get a full nights sleep so I could enjoy the 2 hr 45 min love letter to Hollywood. I went home grilled some burgers and chilled out with a few cocktails before heading to bed.

The forecast was for it to be fucking hot again so I closed up the house, placed the fans and left before I remembered I didn’t put on the AC.

It was almost 3 before I left the theater very pleased and it was damn hot as I biked to the pharmacy to pick up my Rx, paid my mailbox rent and biked home. Danny Lee Hill was coming to stay the night since he was going to be the guest on my PodCast the next day so I sat and watched Smallville till he arrived and then we grilled chicken legs and all was good. 

This time around, taking a step back from his usual tendencies in a way, Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood actually felt like a breath of fresh air to me, and that’s coming from someone who absolutely enjoys the violence he presents throughout his films. This movie is worth your time if you’re a fan and also for those who are turned off by the excessive violence. Here’s why I believe this film may reach a broader audience than most of his works. Almost completely devoid of a story at all, Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood follows Rick Dalton (Leonardo DiCaprio), a fading Hollywood star, and Cliff Booth (Brad Pitt) as his stunt double who no longer receives any work.

Throughout a series of events and the introduction of Sharon Tate (Margot Robbie), this is a film that disobeys every rule that most films follow, making for a highly enjoyable experience. To really dive into details would be to ruin where the movie ends up, so the best way to describe this movie is to say that it consists of a lot of great scenes of people talking, which eventually slowly builds to a climax that you may or may not expect. Now, where I feel this film may be for more viewers than most Tarantino flicks is in the fact that the majority of this 161-minute feature doesn’t have a lot of violence. It really did feel like Tarantino was trying to go for a more subdued film as a whole, which will please some viewers. With that said, there are absolutely some brutal moments that don’t hold back, but they are few and far between enough to not have queasy audience members wanting to walk out of the theatre.

As always, Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood’s very best aspect is the screenplay itself. Yes, Tarantino always works with a talented crew in order to make his films look fantastic, but the dialogue spoken by the characters in this film just felt so authentic. At nearly three hours, this is a movie that doesn’t feel like it drags, simply due to the fact that these actors are bringing their A-Game as always and the screenplay they’re working with is top-notch. Every performance here deserves some recognition, but I also believe the script has something to do with that. In the end, if I had to nitpick about anything, I would say that the lack of overall storytelling may hinder the film for people, and even though I was questioning where the film was going, I was always won over by everything else.

Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood is simply one of the best movies I’ve had the chance to see so far in 2019 and I will continue to say that until the year’s end. With stellar performances all around, phenomenal writing/directing, a visual style that feels different than most movies that will come out this year, and a pace that never feels too slow, given the slow nature of the movie, I can’t really find many things to complain about. This film is fantastic.

 Ty arrived about 45 min late but we knocked out and hour show as Cassie filmed and then everyone was on their way and I could enjoy a chill balance of the day at home to prepare myself for work the next day. When I woke the temp dropped and I opened up a few windows before heading out. 

Down the block from my office today getting my mouth watering for Hot Dog Fest 2019 a week from Saturday!


If flesh could crawl, my skin would fall, from off my bones and run away from here. As far from god, as heaven is wide. As far from god , As angels can fly , If holy is as holy does.


I have so many details to write up tomorrow after work in regards to the trip a bunch of  us took from all over to do the Looney Bin show. Dale and Anne drove from Stone City Iowa which is in Jones County, Dave Ganz drove from Lockport, Dawn and Brad drove from Indianapolis, Cassie from the Chicago burbs and I rode with Dale and Anne from Chicago, Ty drove solo sans DLH and Lisa and Rich X came together from Chicago. I love it there and Nick seems to bring out my darkest most vulgar persona and it’s fine in small doses. He’s just the greatest for real. I left behind the cord to the RodeCaster Pro as well as the power strip and as you’ll read below at the end of this writ he returned it in his own fashion.

More tomorrow. 

Dale’s birthday cake I bought him

Dawn Wattles, AZ, Ty Coon and Dave Ganz

AZ / Dave Ganz with the David Allan Coe laminate that Nick Huffman gifted me. 

The Looney Bin at daylight

Samantha Marie of Stupid Girl the garbage tribute band

 The stage is set for the podcast

Samantha Marie onstage doing an acoustic tribute to garbage

Samantha Marie onstage doing an acoustic tribute to garbage

AZ and Dave Ganz

Cassie and Pony

Samantha Marie onstage doing an acoustic tribute to garbage

Live PodCast Nick Hufman, AZ, Ty Coon and Samantha Marie

Live PodCast Nick Hufman, AZ, Ty Coon and Samantha Marie

MK ULTRA prop “dint do nuffin”

Rich Xperience 

Lisa Lightning

Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Nick Huffman

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, and Ty Coon

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Live PodCast Nick Huffman, AZ, Ty Coon, Rich Xperience and Lisa Lightning

Dawn Wattles, Nick Huffman and Brad Wattles

Dawn inspecting Nicks “Killer Beard”

AZ at the board

AZ and Nick Huffman prepping

Brad and Dawn Wattles, Dave Ganz and Ty Coon

Rich Xperience 

Rich Xperience 

Samantha Marie, Nick Huffman and AZ

Nick and AZ

AZ and Ty Coon

Ty Coon and Samantha Marie

Ty’s namesake

Nick Huffman and Ty Coon

Nick Huffman with his medicinal marijuana

This was inside my apt building at 430 AM

Nick Huffman is with Emily Sifrit and 2 others at Mk Ultra Magazine.
13 hrs · Chicago · 


Emily and I had to run to Wrigleyville right quick to drop something off for a friend inside the door of his building. He has been in the music/radio/adult film business for a few decades, has long hair, wears all black, has crazy visitors, clown masks in the window, etc.

If the people in his complex didn’t already think he was into some crazy shit, they definitely will when they see this!

This was pretty badass cool to wake up to dropped off in the middle of the night by Nick Huffman and Emily Sifrit.

A signed guitar by David Allan Coe to go along with the guest pass I was gifted last Saturday at the Looney Bin. Thank you so much. – Alex


Real talk. I want you to know that I very much appreciate all of the support you’ve given not just me/us over the years, but you’ve spent decades fighting for live music, for the right reasons. What you’re doing matters. It doesn’t go unnoticed. Just know that you’re appreciated! - Nick Huffman 


I give in, I fall for the seduction. I give in, give up to the temptation. Lord, have mercy, the Devil made me do it. I can’t help it no matter how I try. I’m so tired and twisted, you know I can’t resist it. Lord, have mercy, the Devil made me do it

Well the big weAkend road-trip is almost here. Hotel rooms, swimming pool, jacuzzis, bad food good booze, great friends and a badass afternoon on tap at the Looney Bin! 2 back to back podcasts with live performances and interviews. FUN!

I have the same room as I did back on March 15th with the step in jacuzzi. Dave Ganz has a room, Ty has a room and Dale and Anne have a room. I can’t wait till I have everyone in the pool area to tell the story about Pete Berwick “cock blocking” me there. 

My layout for the show so far is to have Samantha perform as Stupid Girl doing her acoustic tribute to garbage at 2 and then have her sit with us and Nick Huffman for the first podcast. Then Lisa Lightning will perform followed by Rich Xperience and then have them sit in on half of the second podcast followed by Nichole Bodie and Damon Christopher and then they’ll perform closing out the show. 

The plan after is to return to the hotel eat and chill in the pool etc and then go back to the Looney Bin. Should make for a long exhausting day. Perfect to retreat to a jacuzzi suite to soak and wind down 


To be continued

She don’t like slavery, she won’t sit and beg. But when I’m tired and lonely she sees me to bed. What set you free and brought you to be me babe. What set you free I need you here by me. Because. In the midnight hour she cried more, more, more.

Scott Davidson and Alex Zander 

Scott gave me my first show on radio here in Chicago back in 1999 before we got syndicated, 


Scott Ty and Alex

I was exhausted and in bed at 730P last night. I was up at 4A the morning of the show. However the end result was just as about as professional as it gets as far as my performance. Scott was a great guest and had something of great importance as far as Chicago radio history is concerned. Hard to believe 20 years ago I was on his station with the radio version of MK ULTRASOUND. That’s a long time ago, and another lifetime back when the LOUD Radio guys called me “the most decadent man in radio.” I’m very pleased with yesterdays show. 

I’m looking forward to the show and visit to Kankakee Kounty  this weekend. Should be another milestone for the podcast. 

I slept well last night BTW. The AC being on I’m sure helped. 

Monday after work eats. Soaked for 60 in Franks Red Hot and Apple Cider vinegar. 


A Tale of Two Troopers


Yesterday I was in my home office, the actual room where I write, for the first time in two weeks to update the news on this site. The room was a mess and it took a lot of cleaning the night before in order for me to sit here in the July heat and sew together stories of relevance and interest. I cannot create among dust and disorder. I had guests here for 5 days the week before and though they were very accommodating as far as keeping the kitchen in order, other things including my health went by the wayside. Last week my heart had me in a scare as never before. I went 2 days with no sleep or food and still managed to work by Thursday I felt “Almost Human.” Friday I was well enough to bike 10 miles to the office. So here I am again to catch up on this section which is long long overdue I know.

It’s Sunday morning as I write this. I’ve been up since around 4AM. By 430 I decided to just get the fuck out of bed so here I am. I began at 633AM playing Too Darks “Devils Twang” in my kitchen with the doors and windows up till this afternoon and then it 3 days of AC and curtains shut.

Yesterday I learned Cassie’s father is in the hospital having heart surgery. There might be complications so she may not be able to make the show. Family First. My thoughts are with her and if I prayed her family would be in my prayers. But I don’t.

Thursday night as I was watching “Bohemian Rhapsody” Nichole Bodie called. As you may or may not know she is scheduled to perform next Saturday at our first and maybe only remote ever which we’re doing in Bradley IL at the Looney Bin. After trading pleasantries she informed me she would be having cancer surgery on the 17th just 3 days prior to our show. Her main concern seemed to be insurance coverage and the deductible. She assured me that she and Damon would still be doing the show and then we had some laughs and she vented about some things and I told her it’d be GREAT fodder for the show.

Friday coming home in the heat on my bike I got sidetracked by and caught up in north side rush hour traffic. It was a fucking nightmare. As I was hopping off of my bike at just shy of 6P of course my phone was ringing. I cussed out loud as I do and locked my bike up and took my sweaty ass up into my steaming hot as fuck flat and peeled off some clothes and checked my phone to see it was Dale who I hadn’t spoken to in 2 weeks but he had messaged me earlier in the day to confirm his room was booked for the 20th in the same hotel and I’m staying in for the remote and to also celebrate his birthday. He’ll be fifty fucking seven! When I last saw him on my visit to Iowa to make our annual trek to see CHEAP TRICK he hadn’t been feeling well at all. He still managed to do the show, meet up with Michael X and Jessica to go to a state park and hike the next day and even tote me around the “future birthplace of Captain James T. Kirk” Monday before my long bus ride home. He did have some doctor ordered tests scheduled for the following Monday. When I got home things got so busy and I had guests for a week that we hadn’t had time to speak. So when I returned his call he had some rather unpleasant news for me. He has Bells Palsy Syndrome. Bell’s palsy causes sudden, temporary weakness in your facial muscles. This makes half of your face appear to droop. Your smile is one-sided, and your eye on that side resists closing.


Bell’s palsy, also known as facial palsy, can occur at any age. The exact cause is unknown. It’s believed to be the result of swelling and inflammation of the nerve that controls the muscles on one side of your face. Or it might be a reaction that occurs after a viral infection.

For most people, Bell’s palsy is temporary. Symptoms usually start to improve within a few weeks, with complete recovery in about six months. A small number of people continue to have some Bell’s palsy symptoms for life. Rarely, Bell’s palsy can recur.

He told me that not only can he not taste food but that it tastes terrible AND the texture is uncomfortable. Still he’s going to make the trek from Iowa to Chicago and then to Bradley to attend the MKULTRASOUND PodCast remote.

Now THAT’s a friend and a dedicated one at that.

That echo’s back to my 50th birthday party which was held in New Glarus WI December of 2014. The week prior he was driving his car BIG 666 to work when it slid off the road and into a pole totaling the vehicle and brusing some ribs etc. He still somehow pulled it together to drive another car to New Glarus to spend the weekend with us in WI to celebrate.


So that’s the tale of two troopers. Two remarkable people. Two remarkable friends.


 This is the song that was playing as I end this writ:


Hear the trumpets hear the pipers
One hundred million angels singin’
Multitudes are marchin’ to the big kettledrum
Voices callin’, voices cryin’
Some are born and some are dyin’
It’s alpha and omega’s kingdom come
And the whirlwind is in the thorn tree
The virgins are all trimming their wicks
The whirlwind is in the thorn trees
It’s hard for thee to kick against the prick
In measured hundredweight and penny pound
When the man comes around

I should have seen it coming. It was right behind your eyes. You were young and it was summer and I just had to take a dive. Winning you was easy, But darkness was the prize

Ginkgo Organic Gardens

Ginkgo Organic Gardens was founded in 1994 by Sarah Steedman and Jill Swan as a way to provide organic food to food banks in Uptown. With the help of the City of Chicago, Jill and Sarah converted an empty double lot into a garden with fencing, raised beds, a tool shed, and fruit trees.

In 1998, Ginkgo joined the NeighborSpace network of Chicago community gardens.

Ginkgo initially donated the produce from its garden to a variety of service organizations, but eventually established a relationship with the Northside location of Vital Bridges, a multi-service center that helps people with HIV/AIDS in metropolitan Chicago.

The first Argyle Night Market of the 2019 season!  Which runs 5pm to 9pm every Thursday until the end of August.   

I love summer in my neighborhood

The second Thai Food Festival, to be held on Irving Park Road on Saturday, August 17th (11am – 10pm) and Sunday, August 18th (11am – 9pm).  

I’m almost human, baby please don’t run away Cause wherever you run I’ll be a scream away I’m very hungry and you’re what I’m thinkin’ of Ooh baby, baby, baby, so hungry for your love

It’s been a very weird couple of weeks. Updates tomorrow night.

This is where two weeks kicked off with my old friend Deep Eddy. The first bottle the day of the eve of the Pride Parade was with Cassie. Then we took it to Tac Quick where it was quickly decided I’d be buying KK (Surussawadee Sailop  แค่ไหนแค่นั้น – เบสท์ ทิฏฐินันท์ which translate to “gift” or “present”) a new rock n roll t shirt. At first Cassie and I searched for a vintage KISS t but then I decided on the same t I bought for Brad and Dawns daughter Miranda for her graduation, a very sexy Motely Crue shirt. Anyway, Cassie went to see Snoop Dog, returned late that night and we woke up early to get ready for the PrideCast with I LOVE RICH.

The following Wednesday as I awaited Dawn and Brads arrival I had another bottle of Deep Eddy. 

Cassie with no make up and a margarita at Tac Quick


With Brad at Tac Quick and margaritas

Black Metal at Walgreens

KK’s new t shirt

You put me through the ringer and hung me out to dry. You licked me off your fingers just like a piece of pie. You break my heart in pieces. But I’ve got the glue to glue it. Girl lovin’ you’s a dirty job and I’m the man to do it



It’s going to be a great Saturday afternoon 7/20/19 at my favorite live rock n roll watering hole, performing at the afternoon matinee event before, between and after the MKUKTRASOUND PodCasts: Lisa Lightning, Rich Experience, Torianna Nichole Bodie and Damon Christopher and an acoustic tribute to garbage Stupid Girl Samantha Marie

Wednesday June 26:

It was the warmest day of the year and for the first time I was able to bike to work two days in a row. When I got home the blue skies and sunshine did not last long. It did make for another good night of sleep. 

Thursday June 27:

I attempted to get some sun. There are 3 videos on the MK Instagram and 3 on my personal Facebook page. The beach at Montrose was completely flooded. There was a gigantic stagnant pool of bacterial/e-coli filled pool/pond of still water. It seriously smelled like a sewer.  There were approx a hundred younger children before me and following me as I tried to scout out a spot to catch some rays for an hour or so. The stench was overwhelming as I attempted to brave it. Then a millennial couple decided to park next to me and loudly play dance club music, hip hop and bad pop the likes of Green Day and post punk radio friendly Red Hot Chili Peppers. After nearly an hour I had all I could take and bailed. I never play music at the beach mainly because I don’t want to draw attention to myself and my friends. (we like to drink there) The flooded beach made for lack of privacy. Tomorrow I’m going back very early. 

I was hoping that the heat through the weekend would dry this mess up some but tonight as the sun set we experienced another huge thunderstorm. I was thinking as I was walk to and from the laundromat in the 90 degree heat (2 miles round trip) and I also walked to Target which should have added about another mile, the city could take a bulldozer down there and clear it out in no time. I suppose it’d have to go 2 days without raining which doesn’t look likely before my guests get here next week. Dawn and Brad from Indianapolis are staying for 5-days. They arrive Wednesday evening and we’re gonna do a lot of BBQing and beaching. 

First though is this weAkends MKULTRASOUND PrideCast, and Boy Howdy have things ever changed from a year ago, even though I don’t think I’ll be enjoying the same kinda sexy company. 3 days to go so one never knows. I’ve been working really hard on material and this one should be hysterical. I sent Mark ideas for him to work up in his studio in Baton Rouge. Nonetheless it’ll be a pretty gay episode. 

Friday June 28

Woke up at 530AM and started scripting this next show.It should go very well as log as everyone is on time. Cassie is coming in tomorrow afternoon to help set up and she’s staying because there will be no parking at all since so many streets will be blocked off.

Rich, Drew and I have a lot of history so we should have a killer and very personal show. 

Rained again around noon. So sick of it. At least I have a lot to do inside and I really want to squeeze in the Runaways movie in a bit.

Cassie put up the new YouTube episode the one where I was sick and obviously very bloated from all the buffet eating with Dale in Iowa. Funny I didn’t drink much at all that weekend and still looked it. Trying to do the best I can but know will fall short when Brad and Dawn are here next week. The company will be nice though.