Met a hoochie-koochie named Dizzy Cowabunga. I said “Shut your face and take off what you got under”. Went outside, said “your place, not mine. Cause my granny’s on the couch and she smells like she might die”. SHUT UP!

Cassie Balazic is Cassandra Jourgensen

Thanks for the killer words at the end. I played it to G on my voice text…aww shucks! LOL – Our editor in Hollywood (he worked on horror films, and was a fan of my uncle Joseph) said you did the best interview. We actually dumped 2 others completely out of the film, to make more room for your segments…those other guys were somewhat well known radio guys in Chicago but not brain alive! We are thinking about a mini doc on LoudRadio sometime next year, since the evolution of the radio network was quite a story… gracias amigo 4 all! – Glenn Stefano DSN Music

My brothers at DSN are so freaking cool!
1993 in Pittsburgh when and ex girlfriend from LA came to visit
Pittsburgh DJing a Delta Helter Skelter house party

HEAR ME, HEAR ME! Catching up and a personal message from your Damned Cowboy.

The Friday morning after I got the call from Emily that Nick Huffman 4 days prior had passed away, I was in my home office and got a message that my Facebook page had been compromised. I tried to enter the Facebook 6-digit Confirmation Code but it was too late. By the time I made the attempt I had lost all access to my personal page and my MKULTRASOUND Podcast page as well as the MK ULTTRA Magazine page. I quickly got as message from my friend Jason that he tried to message me that I had been hacked and whoever did had posted 18 or so ISIS terrorist images and that he sent a message the person replied that he (I) had been hacked. Then the message according to Jason were gone. I tried every day for weeks to contact Facebook for assistance and did not get a single reply. They would shut me down completely 30 days later without acknowledging my complaint. Upset doesn’t even begin to explain how I was feeling. I was LIVID! I had lost more than 16 yrs of images and hard work, not to mention all the work I had put into the MK ULTRA and PodCast pages. Concert photos that are gone forever. However most of all my biggest concern was getting in touch with Nick Huffman’s family and friends regarding the upcoming memorial. On the following Monday the day after his funeral I created a new page and began to contact the people close to Nick and there are MANY. It took some time but I did and I slowly began to rebuild my close friends list. So many wedding photos gone, so many memories gone forever. How dare Facebook/Meta who band me from posting over things they misinterpret as against their “Community Standards”. Somehow criminals and gang bangers get away with them posting videos of them violently harming, torturing innocent people or robbing them. And the looting they are so proud of are fine. I post the name of a Japanese starlet I know on a friend’s page that posted a photo of her and I and blocked for 7 days. Her name is Marica Hase. How offensive is that? Meta and big tech have far too much power and I have a big beef with social media and the political divide and racial divide they have created as well as lifelong friends deleting or blocking one another due to differences in politics. I suppose that’s their end game. I’ve saved this rant till now. Now that I have a little spare time which I have a lot less of these days balancing my life, work, and responsibilities. I only just began last night updating images, creating “albums” and updating the MK ULTRA website “Diary of a Damned Man”. Losing a good and supportive not to mention funny friend like Nick hasn’t been easy to deal with and for those that follow also know that just before Nick Huffman passed my lifelong friend (since 16 yrs old) Dave Parsons lost his wife Valerie and I had found out my good and beautiful friend Tori from New Hampshire had passed away in December 2021. I was attempting to reach her that the MISFITS were returning to Chicago for Riot Fest. The last time they played she stayed here. All of those photos are gone as well. So I’ve been at a turtles pace getting back to a headspace where I can do these things I’ve been lacking, including keeping the podcast on a normal schedule.

Its been rough lately, but I’ve had some good times thanks to good friends. Nicks memorial was fun, I’ve been visited by some old friend I hadn’t seen in a long – long time and more are coming from all of the country to visit. It helps. I’ve been spending more time with Bob Hoeksema and Mike Ganshert who are solid brothers to me. Concerts are coming back and that makes me very happy. I haven’t seen I LOVE RICH in over a decade. Valerie and her man care coming to stay mid next week and I plan a final trip to the Looney Bin for a birthday show if I can make it happen. I’ve been in a rotten mood and I’m slowly getting out of it. BUT FUCK FACE BOOK AND THEIR BLATENT HYPOCRICY! At least I have my job it’s the only thing that is keeping me grounded. The only thing and it helps keep my mind off of the negativity in my world right now.

″Facebook is profiting off and amplifying disinformation that harms others, because it’s profitable. This isn’t a speech issue, it’s about Facebook’s business model that prioritizes engagement in order to keep people on Facebook’s platforms to serve them more advertisements.”

New Reports Underline Facebook’s Role in Exacerbating Political Divides – But Will Facebook Take Action?

Published Aug. 10, 2020 By Andrew Hutchinson Content and Social Media Manager

And one more thing before I move on. I will never choose my friends based on who they supported in the last election or the elections coming up. It never used to be this way in my near 6 decades of life. It’s a shame that social media is destroying friendships as well as relationships. And shame on the people who allow social media to do it. – AZ

You gave him an inch, he took you a mile. He made you believe, you’re society’s child. Then get in his new car, get in his style. I told you his way, he won’t take you far.

I have far too many blanks to fill in on this entry as well as the July 4th friends BBQ. Uploading pix has been the hardest part. I’ll get to it in the next 24 hrs. A lot has happened since Nick passed not to mention I’ve been busier than ever and depressed over the whole thing. So I’ll be back on sooner than later to take care of business. A few good friends have helped me thru this as well as some damned great rock n roll shows, a new friend and an old friend who popped back in after 10 long years. To Be Continued…

Bob pulls John Wilkes Booth on me at the Des Plaines Theater and shoots me from behind.

Carrying 65 lbs of Shannon Brady‘s luggage up the Casa Diablo stairs early afternoon Sunday.

This is the night I met Shannon in 2012 goofy AZ who was promoting a show that night. We a whirlwind fling that went several months and attended many events and ate so much great food.

One of our pre date drinks, this time it was Meade from Camelot Wines based in Indiana. She loos so happy! He beauty was truly intoxicating.

Reunion for Shannon 2022 She actually learned of this recipe on radio or TV. I make Shannarita’s till this day
For Shannon 2012 the first Shannarita!

Sunday morning pre podcast ritual. Breakfast at El Palmar

Friday after work ritual I learned from my very good friend Mike Ganshert in New Glarus.

I made a new friend a week after the Sonic Slam 2022 shows in Des Plaines and St. Charles. Dianna is a total rocker. Here is the ode to Seinfeld’s Kramer ASSMAN on my back porch.

Have some punch

Pre podcast send off. Till next time D.

4 Hot Dogs only $6.99 on sale from $7.49. This inflation is hitting us hard.
Milk at the grocery in my neighborhood only $7.16 a gallon. I needed it

Late July 2022 1 dozen eggs at Walgreens and 2 weeks later look at that price jump. I cannot ignore these things.

Tres Pendejos at Bearded Lady Lounge

Thursdays in the summer, I love this and its a very short bike trip to Argyle. It’s back after 2 years of COVID

Another AZ tradition, a weekend meal from Ba Le Sandwiches off Argyle

Bob Hoeksema has been diligent at creating watermarks and shooting the moon with his incredible lens for MK ULTRA. Thanks BH.

I think the best burgers I ‘ve ever had come from Asadoras Argentinas Burgers, in Oswego, IL, which BH turned me onto a year ago. They specialize in Argentinian-style burger. Prices aren’t bad either.

BH is shocked at his meal.

A two-hour podcast dedicated to my friend Nick Huffman


Merle Haggard – Mama Tried
Whips and Things – David Allan Coe
Garden Of Eden – Guns N’ Roses
All My Rowdy Friends Have Settled Down – Hank Williams Jr
Quiet Riot – Lets Get Crazy
Faster Pussycat – No Room for Emotion
If You’re Gonna Be Dumb, You Gotta’ Be Tough (From “Jackass Forever”) – DJ Paul
My Dead Drunk Friends – Hollywood Vampires
Hello to Mrs. Calabash, wherever you are

A long weekend got even longer coming home to do a podcast driving in Pride Parade traffic

New MKULTRASOUND PodCast: The Great Nick Huffman Celebration of Life PodCast w/ Alex, Dawn and Emily

Hosted by Alex Zander, Dawn Barbee Dahl and Emily Sifrit

“The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.” Jack London.


Merle Haggard – Mama Tried
Whips and Things – David Allan Coe
Garden Of Eden – Guns N’ Roses
All My Rowdy Friends Have Settled Down – Hank Williams Jr
Quiet Riot – Lets Get Crazy
Faster Pussycat – No Room for Emotion
If You’re Gonna Be Dumb, You Gotta’ Be Tough (From “Jackass Forever”) – DJ Paul
My Dead Drunk Friends – Hollywood Vampires
Hello to Mrs. Calabash, wherever you are

“Here’s to all the women, the widows and the brides. The ones that we came home to, the ones we had to hide. The next one’s to the road boys, and all the crap we tried. We thought we were immortal, and then suddenly you died.”

Nick Huffman at Casa Diablo the day after a rock n roll BBQ

I’ve been uber busy with work and work outside of work. Now exactly two weeks after Nick Huffman passed I prepare to journey to the Looney Bin for the weekend to allow the healing to begin at the 2 day celebration of his life. I take the stage Saturday in Bradley for perhaps the very last time.

I’m doing my best to get this section of the site caught up. I have a lot of blanks to fill in. I’ve been very busy since late March and last weekend was my first free weekend and I didn’t do a podcast so I did a lot of biking.

Thanks to so many friends old and new who I saw last night at the Looney Bin Celebration of Nick Huffman’s life a difficult healing began. This evening will be much easier. The great staff and talented bands I was able to see before coming back to the hotel much too early was beautiful experience. Tonight is night #2 and tomorrow the MKULTRASOUND PodCast tribute to the Great Nick Huffman will go online. Thanks to everyone and I will miss you.

“May the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.”

Gearing up for BBQ #2

My Radio Past is shaking up shite. More details forthcoming

The Vinland flag is a Nordic cross flag designed by American gothic metal band Type O Negative. The flag was used to symbolize a variety of frontman Peter Steele’s interests and political ideals (paganism, nature connectedness, and socialism), including his own Scandinavian heritage. Viking explorers visiting North America around the year 1000 called one of the areas they came to “Vinland”. The flag appears on various Compact Disc covers produced by the group, sometimes with the slogan “made in the People’s Technocratic Republic of Vinland”, and adorns various pieces of Type O Negative merchandise. The flag strongly resembles the unofficial flag of the Forest Finns adopted in 1978.

By the power vested in me by the Universal Life Church, I name thee as BIKE O NEGATIVE! Fuck I love this bike.

Did 36.8 miles non stop on Saturday June 18. 3 hrs only stopping to sip water, traffic and take an occasional photo. My knees hated me but I loved all of it.

The Dock on Monrose w/ the boys Max and Stev’en. Out new waitress is Morgan.

“The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.” Jack London.

The photo above was shot on my back porch deck during one of our summer gettogethers. This pain gets more intense every time I have to talk about it.

The Nick Huffman shirts are selling as fast as they can print them

Nick Huffman Dies

By MMP Admin.JBJun 10, 2022 | 4:26 PM

The charismatic co-owner of the Looney Bin Tavern in Bradley has died.  Nick Huffman passed away yesterday at the age of just 42.  He’s described by those who knew him best as a man with a big heart who was a big supporter of live music, painted portraits, wrote a book and produced comedy albums and was a former radio reporter for the legendary Mancow in Chicago.  The cause of death has not yet been released.  Visitation will be Sunday at Schreffler funeral home in Kankakee from 2 until 8.

11/6/2013 the first time I met Nick w/ model Tana Leggo

BOURBONNAIS — Nicholas C. Huffman, 42, of Bourbonnais, passed away Thursday (June 9, 2022) at his home.

He was born Oct. 6, 1979, in Kankakee, the son of Randy and Maureen (Rivard) Huffman.

Nick was co-owner and operator of The Looney Bin Bar. He was a loyal protector of his Looney Bin Family. Nick was an artist who enjoyed painting, live music, comedy and horror movies, rock and roll parties, Secret Squirrel stuff, hunting, fishing and just plain bull. He was the author of a #1 Best Selling Book, several #1 Best Selling Comedy Albums and former reporter for Mancow. Nick was the owner of The Boom Boom Room in Bradley. He is the holder of countless stories that the world may never know. Nick had an incredible love for fried chicken and Hooters wings.

Surviving is his mother, Maureen Huffman, of Bourbonnais; one daughter, Callie Huffman, of Bourbonnais; two sons, Waylon and Cash Huffman, of Kankakee; one stepson, Austin Glassford; one stepdaughter, Hayley Faulkner; his Emily; many aunts, uncles, cousins, friends, and his Looney Bin Family.

Preceding him in death were his father, Randy; and grandparents, Charles and Barbara Huffman and Richard and Mary Ann Rivard.

Visitation will be from 2 p.m. to 8 p.m. Sunday, June 12, at Schreffler Funeral Homes, Kankakee Chapel. The funeral service will be at 10 a.m. Monday, June 13, also at the funeral home. Burial will follow in Kankakee Memorial Gardens Cemetery in Aroma Township.

Memorials may be made to the wishes of the family.