I’ve been damned, I’ve been cursed, I’ve been guilty and abused. I spit the hangman in his face and hung him on his noose. Habitual threat, I got you in my claws. Gonna tan your hide, rip the flesh off your bones. Look me in the eye, and you’re gonna turn to stone.

I started this over the weekend and Greg came by Tuesday night armed with a bottle of Jack and a bag full of veggies and steak and we made some Epic Chili. My pornbread was the best it’s ever been. I used Cream style corn (thanks Ed K.) instead of milk. This time I increased it by 1/2 a cup. We used the spices that Too Dark Mark brought me last Nov from Austin.

Thanks to Too Dark Mark

Finally got my ol bass guitar fixed. As soon as thing get stable for me again I’m buying the black Ibanez electric acoustic at the pawn shop up the road and a nice lil amp.

Second cup of coffee on a frigid Thursday. Yes, I plan to bike a few miles again today despite the weather. I really want to see the parade Saturday but there are Thunderstorms in the forecast. I went last year and froze watching most of it from inside a restaurant eating Pho.

One thing I’m not missing for sure in MINISTRY in April. I’ve only missed them 2x in my professional career. The first I was too crippled and in too much pain to attend and passed on ALL ACCESS New Year’s Eve 2016. The second was in July of the same year and I took a last minute pass on VIP ALL ACCESS because I was head over heels. Not that she expected me to I just didn’t want our second weekend together to be one that took place at an event as it did the prior weekend. Dumb AZ move and my friends let me know they felt that way. I can’t’ say I really have any regrets as at the time I enjoyed it, so, be that as it is. At the time it felt right and at least I allowed myself to open up to feelings.  As I’ve noted I really like the sound, at least sonically the new offering and I’m hoping to hear some old faves on this tour. I’m taking Dale which is risky given his decade plus long rant of being Anti – Al and referring to him as “your buddy Al” in conversation. I’m sure the pix will be stellar and we’ll dine at the diner next door for sure.

I added two new channels to my Roku, I have Netflix again and CBS All Access to see the new Star Trek series I hear good things about.

Last night I watched “My Next Guest Needs No Introduction with David Letterman”. I watched the maiden episode w/ Barack Obama and it really let the viewer feel the big diffo between our current leaders’ personality and lack of charisma and that apart of Obama that sold the American public. I’ve always loved Letterman’s interviewing style. Next to the style of The Playboy Interview which we studied at Pitt Dave has been one of my influences of the genre. 

Dammit now I have the song “Christine” by L.A. Guns going through my head. Time to make the bed and get on with the day. 

Can’t ill July 13! I only wonder what will be showing.

Hopefully Avengers or something of the like

This just in

the re-opening of Carol’s Pub by Ed Warm of “Joe’s on Weed Street.”

My very favorite 4AM/5AM honky tonk and dive bar ever!

Carol’s was a time capsule, unaffected by the rise of craft beer, WiFi or flatscreen televisions. The bar served domestic bottled beers and whiskey shots while revelers crowded the dance floor after midnight to hear live country music until 5 a.m. on Sundays. Even in a blue state metropolis like Chicago, Carol’s allowed the staunchest country music skeptic a chance to dance to country covers like “Jolene” and “Ring of Fire.” The house band, Diamondback, developed such a following that they regularly performed before Bulls games in the United Center’s atrium. 

Did one say so cruel: “Tis better to love than lose”. Ignorance is bliss – wish not knew your kiss. So many times been burned, this lesson goes unlearned. Remember desire only fuels the fire – liar

Thanks to a good friend, Jason Meudt at Vision4Films/Lazer On for the fine gifts

2 Peter Steele Pint Glasses and 2 Type O Negative cloth coasters

Pornbread Step 1

Pornbread Step 2

Pornbread is Done

The big pan is for tomorrow’s chili dinner. I made myself a 1/2 size can of Pornbread Jr and it’s damn good. 


 Thanks to Dale, for a lot of things I should add, but thanks to his keen eye that CHEAP TRICK are playing a county fair in Iowa a month after EXXXOTICA  I won’t have to leave the expo and see the show and return to my hotel late. I love Iowa and I love going there to see CHEAP TRICK. I was mentioning to Dale earlier this week how I actually enjoy the 5 hours bus ride to and from Iowa. I enjoy a lot of things about Iowa and spending time with Dale and Anne on their turf is a huge plus. Dale has gone out of his way over the years to be a true and supportive friend to me. 

My Hetero Lifemate  has been nothing but great and after digging in the MK ULTRA archives again and finding the thousands of pix of his contributions to MK make me smile. This will be our third time seeing CHEAP TRICK in Iowa together. The last time I shared fruit punch Jolly Ranchers and met Ashley on the ride to “The Hawkeye State.” Who by the way is in Hawaii with Paul and I wish she’d get back already.

I feel like the weather is going to get better soon. Next weekend is the 2018 Argyle Lunar New Year Parade and I hope Greg and his new squeeze can join me and hopefully Tom. I have plans to see the LA GUNS Made in Mila DVD w/ Bob out at Tubby’s in the next couple of months and I hope to ride my bike on the Fox River Trail that weekend. I’m overdue for some Newbomb time. Wait till they see our shirts. 



Hey my lady in death, I see you’ve come for my last breath. I never thought that we were through, I bet you knew that I knew it too. Hey my lady in black. Now I see you’re back. Haven’t seen you for a while. Kinda miss your deadly smile.

Banned from using Facebook for 30 days due to 2 posts which obviously offended someone to the point I was reported early this morning. 

and the one that had me blocked/banned is similar to the same image I’ve posted dozens and dozens of times over the last few years. 

The devil take your stereo, and your record collection. The way you look, you’ll qualify for next year’s old age pension!


First 2 concerts of the year next month

Oh baby, and now it gets more and more exciting. Hello 2018, it’s good to see ya’!


Some long overdue rearranging of the Warhol Room in order to keep Water Cat from unplugging and tearing into the cords of my entertainment center.

Thanks to Beth for the photo above

Today I’ll be clearing out the private stock room which joins my office. I’m sure that’ll be another giant walk down memory lane. 

It’s a Type O Negative type of day. Now playing “Life is Killing Me”

At any minute Heidi Robinson who I have worked with since the early 90′s is sending me the new MINISTRY. I’m taking Dale to shoot the show here next month. I know we’ll be eating at :

…..adjacent to the venue. 


I just found another box of discs which have been boxed for 10-15 years or more

I can’t believe the stuff I’m finding. I need a live in girlfriend who would like to take on this project with me. As if anything would get done. 

It took hours to finish going through each and every disc

The neighbors 

View from Red Line Sheridan platform. The front of this house looks really nice from the street. The rear looks ready to collapse.

From one of the discs I opened.

Good Gawd how I love this place. I got so close to the owners over the years that they once offered for me to move out there live upstairs and manage the place and they’d live in Colorado. My dream was to do it with the right woman. And all the music label radio connections I have out there it’d be a dream come true. 

A walk down memory lane from one of the discs I went through last night 2 days w/ Troma founder Lloyd Kaufman was exhausting but fun. 

With actress Glenda Cole at Movieside Film Festival at the Biograph Theater

With Lloyd Kaufman and Jason Harmon after my radio appearance with Lloyd and Messy Stench. Very wild weekend

Last night I got an advance download of the new MINISTRY record. As history would dictate this is nothing new as for 27 years I’ve always received the record long in advance. Sometimes months. I’ve really put a lot into raving about a band that has become a staple of all things MK ULTRA, including yours truly. I have to admit I was skeptical. After reading the lyrics earlier this week it seems as politically charged as were the W Bush era records and not my favorites by any stretch. As a matter of fact I favor the one record the fans hate the most. I’m a Filth Pig purist 

“Everyone hated [Filth Pig]. They all wanted Psalm 70, and I gave them an electronic-free record full of gun-in-mouth dirges of nothing but pain. Aside from the cover art, the humour was gone. All that left was misery. And I still had to tour the fucking thing – which went down in history as the interminable, intolerable, absolutely depraved Sphinctour.”

— Al Jourgensen

Despite being the band’s highest-charting album in the US, it was negatively received by reviewers, sharply divided the band’s fanbase, and was a commercial failure. 

As soon as I put it on I started to fall in love. It includes some old familiar heavy rumbling of Filth Pig, as well as some haunting harmonica ala FP and Psalm 69 and excellent new samples as well as some turntable scratching. Sonically it is going to become my second fave in the vast MINISTRY catalog. 

The coolest Valentines card (in Ebonics it would be pronounced Balemtimes despite the spelling) I ever received was from the Relapse Records PR folks supporting Hate Dept. a band MK ULTRA raved about. It was a black on black broken heart and I framed it. From what I remember it was also on card stock. As things would go over time here, despite my hospitality, guests have had no problem stealing from my home. I’ve always maintained that with a collection the likes of mine I don’t usually notice something is missing till I look for it. This small item was no exception. Apparently whoever it was liked it more than I did.

The second coolest was a card from Cleopatra Records PR supporting The Electric Hellfire Club which I still own as it is part of the forthcoming MK ULTRA coffee table book.

The third is framed in my home office and is behind glass. The person who gave it to me is no longer on Earth.

Oh and today just happens to be ASS WEDNESDAY

Lookin’ out my window, sometimes I wonder, Am I ever gonna get to where I’m gonna go? Maybe tomorrow, maybe next summer. Girl, I just don’t know, ’cause, I’m snowblind

I welcomed the snow. It makes for some beautiful pix. Last Monday Danny Lee Hill came by with fixins for me to make us a taco dinner. It was good to hang with my old friend. He left mid afternoon Tuesday and I got to taken care of business.


“If God were suddenly condemned to live the life which He has inflicted upon men, He would kill Himself.”
- Alexandre Dumas

The year was 2000

As I dig through the boxes and boxes of disc, music, photographs I am once again blessed with the life I was capable of living once upon a time. One disc that was unmarked contained a thousand plus digital images from the last half a year that Heather H and I would spend together. They started with Xmas 1999 in Indianapolis with her family. Then a party we hosted for New Years Eve bringing in a new millennium with a small gathering of friends here in Chicago at our home in Humboldt. In many ways living in that house was a curse. It would mark a downward spiral for yours truly. 

Photos from our travels together, concerts, events and more. Some of teh most fun was at a now defunct bar somewhere in southeast IL or northeast IN. The bands were Chainsaw Johnny and Human Monster. As tradition would have it I sang with both bands. 

Dodge City KS

My MDFMK release party at Liars Club



“the free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it – basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them.” ― Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Madness

Argyle Lunar New Year Celebration
Date: February 24, 2018
Festivities: Starting at 11:00 AM
Parade: 1:00 PM – 2:30 PM
Route: Parade will kick-off underneath the CTA Argyle red line station at 1:00 PM and will head east along Argyle St., south along Sheridan Rd., west along Ainslie St., and north along Broadway to Argyle St.

I’ve been drinkin’ quite a lot lately
Been thinkin’ of the times when you made a star
Times do change and we must
rearrange our lives with it

I’d like to send you a postcard but still don’t
know your address, don’t remember your name
It’s funny how your face is still in my eyes…
Hidden by a tear

I do believe in that one day you’ll rise again
I’ll always keep on believing
It gives me strength to carry on

Without love through dark nites…
A million miles away

“Fallen Star” – Hanoi Rocks

Wed 1/31

I had a vivid dream of meeting Meghan McCain in Sedona last night and it felt so wrong since she’s recently married. But it a weird was it seems so familiar since she’s always reminded me of a blonde Shannon Brady.

Woke up early, took my vitamins, also accidently a Hydroxycut tablet, and spent a few hours filling out documents online and then I was full of energy. I had to dig through the last 6 years of my tax filings and have them ready for an early morning meeting in Lincoln Square Thursday. It wasn’t supposed to be cold but it was windy and felt cold. I was out long enough to go to the local library again this time to use their printer. This will come in handy till I have my own scanner and printer here at home again. When I got home I was in high gear and just started going through boxes and stacking things in the dining room to file away or put in place. I have had a hundred or so random CD’s in a tall rack that haven’t made their way onto the music library, and this would be a goal. In the meantime I began pulling furniture away from the walls, sweeping the baseboards with a broom and vacuuming up the remnants.

I would go onto unsuccessfully sitting down and watch a doc on Project MKULTRA which was on a new station I’ve added to my Roku called Tubi. Tubi TV is the largest collection of free-to-watch U.S. and international TV shows and films. Content is updated each week. I had spent a good hour Tuesday night saving movies and documentaries to my que. This channel was a major find for me and offers hundreds of documentaries and some good movies I had never seen. True Grit and Stand Up Guys were what I watched late Tuesday night. True Grit was one of the best westerns I’d seen in a while. It was nominated for ten Academy Awards: Best Picture, Best Director, Best Adapted Screenplay, Best Actor in a Leading Role, Best Actress in a Supporting Role, Best Art Direction, Best Cinematography, Best Costume Design, Best Sound Mixing, and Best Sound Editing. However, it won none.


Got up at 6 and got ready for my 830 meeting. It was a lot colder than the day before and is going to get even colder into the weekend. It only took me 20 minutes to get to Lincoln Square by taking the Red Line to Lawrence and the 81 bus to Western. I was in and out in less than 15 min. They will notify me by mail when my long meeting will be. This as it turned out was a formality. I bought some coffee and dishwashing liquid and when I got to the Red Line decided to walk home in order to get exercise. This time I took Hydroxycut on purpose with my vitamins. When I got home I could all but sit still so I started hammering away on projects. I did manage to watch the MK ULTRA doc and uploaded some trippy parts to the MK ULTRA Magazine Instagram page. My cats were being especially frisky and driving me nuts. I caught some interesting footage yesterday morning and posted to Instagram. Demon cats.

Tomorrow I’ll finish with the CD’s and then I’m going to break down the contents of anything not on a shelf in my private stockroom. The former guest room is nice and almost peaceful, for now. I like how it helps complete the house and also give me more storage for movies and my musical instruments. 

American Mind Control: MK ULTRA (2015)

At the end of the Second World War the United States government (under Operation Paperclip) extracted Nazi scientists from Germany. Very quickly top secret scientific testing started to happen all across America. Project MK ULTRA was formed by the CIA. The US government proceeded to drug, rape, torture, and murder innocent citizens on a massive scale that spanned decades. Chemicals, hypnosis, sensory deprivation, isolation, verbal and sexual abuse, and DEATH were just a means to their end game. Once discovered by the public the project was supposedly closed down, but not before the CIA destroyed thousands of documents to hide their illegal activity. Ordinary people were experimented on like lab rats by their own government. Assassinations, conspiracies, cover-ups, manipulation of Hollywood, and mind control. This is the story of a very black, covert government project that continues to this day.

LA GUNS killing it last weekend at House Of Blues Anaheim

Don’t you let ‘em pass, pour yourself a glass, full of kerosene, light the fire. Don’t you stand alone just ’cause the demon’s gone, that don’t mean that you’re over it.

Within the next week or so there will be some minor but significant changes coming to this mk ultra site. Some of the links I had paid to be created haven’t been accessible for 5 plus years so they are being removed. Another change will be the Staff Writers link which I never liked the title of and those mentioned on the page are no longer involved with anything related to MK. Not to mention my “weakness” for Redheads isn’t exactly accurate while it’s been widely documented that my “weakness”, if I have any is Asians. 

In 2018 I hope to share more of the talents of 3 people who have been tight with my work since before the new millenium:

Bob Hoekema aka Newbomb Turk

Dale Patrick Bennett


Thomas Welles

Though I’ve gone through some dramatic changes personally in the past few years, the focus and the spirit of what I set out to create 23 years ago has not changed.

Very soon my brother from another mother, Greg Duncan will be helping me to get this site to blow up on more search engines. So please stay tuned, the worst is yet to come. 

Work on the mk ultra coffee book will begin again soon. The hardest part is done. Next we’ll be scanning hundred of photos and I’ll be putting text together. The cover design will change though the concept will stay the same in order to avoid any legal hassles. 


Ed Kowalski, hot damn! We used some of that ground Trinidad Scorpion Butch pepper you gifted to me to spice up our rib sauce. It was great. Not great was me using it in rice that has me sweating and in tears.

Debating on making the trek to Indpls to catch this gig at the Vogue. 

Finally took the bed out of the guest room so I can make it space for instruments. Giving it away on Craigslist.  I’ll have an air mattress for guests in closer to spring.

The transformation in the ex guestroom is coming along quite nicely. I took a 90 minute break last night to catch up with my favorite “devil girl” last night at Bar on Buena where she kept me up to date on some gossip and bought me 3 shots of Templeton Rye. Then I was back, worked some more, watched Chicago PD and worked on the room till late. 

One of Kera’s modeling shots. We met some years back at at concert by The Cult. 

Picture from the ladies room at Heaven on 7 600 N Michigan a few years ago when we went to the Hot as a Mutha’ tasting dinner. 

Krztoff and Brendin Ross of BILE both created a new musical project named MURA. Their first show was in Chicago with regional shows in late May early June 2017. Initial tracks were created and recorded in my home which we affectionately refer to as Casa Diablo while I was away camping last Memorial Day Weekend. It was a true honor to have been involved in a part of this fantastic new synth pop musical entity. I’ve been privileged to hear a lot of the songs in various forms ever since and look forward to a full CD of tunes later this year. For now I have a stack of MURA stickers and the members are regulars at Tac Quick. 

Once I own this no beach will ever be the same. 

When I first moved to Chicago in 1998 I hung out here all of the time and went on to host a lot of shows here up till they were closed. Those were really great rock n roll years here as far as venues and record stores. No more. 

In a bar that’s always closing
In a world where people shout
I don’t wanna talk this over
I don’t wanna talk it out
I was quite impressed until I hit the floor
Isn’t that what friends are for?
Pain looks great on other people
That’s what they’re for

Saturday 935AM

I’m now going to make a point to try to do something fun at least once a week.

Stay tuned

Random notes, thoughts of songs Big Mike and I wrote together back in the late 80′s early 90′s: Nuns With Guns, Up In Hell, Master Of The World, Can’t Sleep All Night, King of Sleaze. TBC

“Princess Sakura” a film I’m watching before I head to Lockport

People ask me if I am going insane But I say it’s just this missile in my vein It comes on hard, there’s no stop no start And it kicks so strong, the kick goes on Over and over ’til you can’t belong, It’s an endless song One, two, three, it goes on!

2018 is going to be an epic year personally

Road Trip to Delavan, WI 

A big thaw is coming

…and I knew this was coming. Today I took a road trip up to Lake Geneva with Tom where he’s looking at cottages. We had 3 to visit and Wednesday he’s putting a bid on the Blue one which we both love. I told my new friend Beth (not as in that shitty Peter Criss song) last night that I had the feeling that while I’m gone I’ll hear from Boston on my first assignment. Tom pulled up out front at 1025A and as we started our journey I told him the same thing. After we ordered lunch at Manny’s Snack Shop, an amazing and typical Wisconsin lakeside diner, I checked my email and there it was, my first assignment. 

Downtown Delavan, WI

Cottage my friend Tom is looking to buy in Delavan, WI a block from the lake. Had a great time there today.

Amstar Gas Station – 1501 E State St – Geneva, IL 

Many people would consider this to be racist

Manny’s Snack Shack 404 S Lake Ave, Twin Lakes, WI 53181 6A-2P
Looking for delicious food for under $15? Look no further than Manny’s Snack Shack. The breakfast dishes at the restaurant really bring the crowds in, though lunch and dinner are also served. So when you need a tasty and satisfying meal, visit Manny’s Snack Shack and munch on some American eats.

Tom and Denver Omelet



Her first column is fantASStic!


You know why the moon is so lonely? ‘Cause she used to have a lover. His name was wolverine. They lived in the Spirit World together. And every night they’d wander the skies together. But one of the other spirits was jealous. The Trickster wanted the Moon for himself. So he told wolverine that the Moon asked for flowers. He told him to come to our world and pick her some wild roses. Wolverine didn’t know that once you leave the Spirit World, you can never go back. {Now he’s trapped here} Every night the Moon searches for him, and every night he sees her in the sky and howls her name, but he can never touch her again. - Kayla Silverfox

Hey Newbomb!

As usual it’s a long stretch of days and I’m hardly using my phone to talk at all. BUT today I get one call and as history has proven my other line is blowing up. It drives me crazy. vinn

Today is Paul Stanley’s 66th birthday so I played Lick It Up for the first time in a coons age. I forgot how great that record is especially the drums which are just thunderous. I followed it up with Creatures of the Night and that’s when my phone started burning up. 



Vinnie Vincent came out of seclusion for the first time in 20 years yesterday in Atlanta. The rumors are true, he’s a she now. Nonetheless, he did some great records with KISS for sure. The aforementioned are testament. He helped revive KISS from the near death they were feeling in the early 80′s. I never liked him in teh live show though. 

Treated over 10 lbs of ribs this afternoon to cook later today. !Muy Muy Picante!

We’re making BBQ sauce from scratch as well. 

Tracii Guns 52 yrs old yesterday
You can see videos on the MK ULTRA Instagram site